**This work contains some triggering material, including su*cide. Please be aware of this when viewing.... more>>

Olivia died three times.

Once without knowing anything.

Another time, she ran away.

The last time, she relied on the protection of others.

"Hold your breath and live. Forget who you are, stay hidden, stay alive."

But on the brink of death for the third time, when Theodore grabbed her shoulders and kissed her hotly, speaking his first and last words of truth.

She couldn't do it.

And so, after enduring endless pain, she returned to life.

This time would be different.

She put herself on the stage.

And she would finally end this curtain of despair.

*** <<less

“How does it feel to be the one to be deceived?”... more>>

Sei flinched and shrinked away from him. The man she saw up close had an unrealistic appearance beyond her imagination. With his features, it was hard to guess his age.

“So, what if the food was mixed with something? You shouldn’t have eaten it without knowing what was in it.”

“What are you…”

“If you were hungry, you should have rather ordered room service. If you had, we wouldn’t have met like this.”

Gulping nervously, Sei recalled a plate of high-end cookies on a mini bar. The man was looking down at her with a strange smile as if it was all fun for him.

No matter how handsome and angel-like he looked, she didn’t want to deal with anything that wasn’t normal. She just hoped he was not some crazy psycho.

“I’d love to put it in your mouth, but I’m sure it’ll ruin this pretty face. So let’s stop here. In return…”

The man while saying the vulgar words grabbed her wrist and let her hold his manhood. Surprised by his thickness that couldn’t be held in one hand, she tried to pull her hand out of his grasp, but it was futile. His cold grayish-blue eyes held her body immobile.

“Sei.”

She snapped out of her reverie when she heard his low voice calling out her name.

“I’ll repeat it only once. Don’t you dare think Giulio Parenti is above me. Because if I won't kill you, that means Parenti too would not be able to kill you. Do you understand?” <<less

She was not only reincarnated into someone who died in an absurd fashion, but she also took the crown prince’s place and went to the secret neutral territory, where male members of the five imperial families gathered. As a result, her childhood friends know her as a boy.... more>>

“Goodbye, guys.” she cried in front of her friends who she would never meet again. That was because officially, she (the prince) was going to die soon!

It was fun spending time with them, but she will never see them again. She hopes everyone lives happily!

***

After many years, her childhood friends turned heroes who defeated the wild dragon visited her.

“…Was it you? The one who killed my friend?”

“After killing the previous crown prince, the mu*derer is said to be living comfortably as a princess, right?”

“I will torture you, so much so you’ll wish for death.”

“Answer me. Why did you kill him?”

Of course, they didn’t recognize her at all. No, that’s not the problem… The problem is that her childhood friends are trying to kill her. Wait a second, guys! <<less

It was in the middle of the night that the woman who would be the Duchess came to see me.... more>>

She said my father and mother died, and my kind uncle became king.

She said it's not worth it for me, the crown prince, to be living in hiding, too.

"A while ago, Your Highness had been hiding from me. With all due respect, is that for the sake of survival? Just because your parents died doesn't mean you have no reason to survive. Actually, that fact alone made it all the more reason why you should live. If you die now..."

If I died now?

When I asked her while looking at her eyes, the woman eventually brought out the harsh truth with empathetic eyes.

"It's like a dog's death.”

"That's rude....”

It's been a long time since I said that. In a short while, he has been treated as a madman and beaten to death just by saying similar things. She loosened her arms that held me and I suddenly stiffened up due to it. Because I thought she might have loosened her arm to hit me. But she didn't.

She knelt down with one knee in front of me, just like a knight.

"Hastred's Sarian raised her salutations. May you accept it gladly.”

My first knight is beautiful and kind.

"Are you on my side?”

"Yes, Your Highness.”

It was all a lie. <<less

The father of my child lost his memory before the wedding date. The person who was once loving and sweet had turned cold. The moment Anais looked into his eyes, she could foresee everything coming to an end.... more>>

“You truly do not remember who I am?”

A love that overcame the difference of status. If he cannot remember her, then she had no reason to stay in this place anymore. But-

“I only ask once. I was told that you made medicine to help with my insomnia. ”

Todd grabbed the tea bag out of his pocket and threw it on the table. The contents of the tea bag weren’t medicine, but instead, it was filled with the herbal tea leaves she gifted him a long time ago.

“Let me make an offer. Gather your things and come back to the estate. I’ll make you my official pharmacist.”

Anais calmly stared at Todd.

“I refuse.” <<less