tears. sobbing. crying a puddle on the floor.

i had no clue what I was getting into.

the first part I found to be a nice, enjoyable fluffyish romance between the MC and ML with piece of sh*t side characters.

and then the plot twist happened and let me just tell you, it had me crying so damn bad.

i found the first part of the novel to be almost unbelievable due to the MC's overall naiveness (?)... but there's a reason for this childishness and dear lord was I shocked...

i really liked the relationship between the MC and ML. I loved the comfort they found with each other. I also really like MC's family, who includes a loving stepmom and adorable stepsister, as well as the MC's mom (MC's dad's exwife) still having a good relationship with the family! healthy family dynamics I must say!

MC is somewhat violent toward the villain characters and threatens them with broken bottles and physical harm, so I don't know how innocent I would really call him? The only time he acts naive and cute is around ML when he's still trying to the plot script.

The plot twist did explain much of the character inconsistencies like the love at first sight and the almost ridiculous ability of MC to think ML was not his alter ego, but I was so confused for so many chapters due to the unnecessary author notes. Not going to explain the plot twist, just that it was not what I expected and it was quite interesting to look back on the plot afterwards.

The MC was supposed to be the protagonist of the novel, but became the villain because of a mistake. The novel was written by his mother in the original world. It was supposed to be about the MC having a happy life and the gong and shou was supposed to be his best friends instead of love interests.

Xiao Yang: The childhood friend of the MC and the gong. His father passed away, when he was a child, and he moved in with the MC, because their mothers are friends. His mother became jealous of the fact that her son had a worse life than the MC. After MC's parents divorced, she wanted to marry the father, but the MC rejected her. 14 years old Xiao Yang takes revenge by jumping into the lake and framing 12 years old MC. The gong believes Xiao Yang, but the family believes MC, so they send Xiao Yang and his mother abroad. His first appearance is when he comes back from abroad. He appears gentle and pure, but is scheming and manipulating. He plots against MC and his family, because he likes the gong.

Abu: The order of the novel. He appears as a white puppy. He came to the original world to pick up the MC, but had an accident and was saved by the MC. He mistook another person for the MC and wanted that person to be the protagonist of the novel. There could only be one protagonist, so he tried to kill the protagonist. He forced the MC to act like a villain by punishing him and making him believe that he can go home after dying in the end. The MC was never killed, because he was loved by the world, but his family and lover were killed. He has restarted his life multiple times to save them, but he only regains his memory of the former attempts after his lover dies. The MC finally manages to save them, but then Abu appears in person and tries to kill him again. Abu ends up finding out the truth and kills the other person before disappearing as punishment for interfering.

Bai Mingyuan: The fake protagonist. He went to the same university as the MC and had a crush on him. He died on the same day and was mistaken for the MC, because he had stolen his belongings. His wish to live was stronger than his crush on the MC, so he pretended to be the one who saved Abu and begged to be the protagonist. He and Abu wove many plots to kill the MC, but never succeeded. He was not supposed to appear before killing the MC, but got impatient towards the end and ordered Abu to approach the MC and kill him. He was killed after Abu found out the truth. I hate Abu.

MC knew from birth that he was in a novel. He thought he had to do the relevant events in the novel, else he would be punished. He did most of the events but wouldn't follow through on those that was against his conscious.

Later, after he met ML, MC found out that he wouldn't be punished for not following the plot. Also the plot of the novel that he remembered was different. He believed that his friend looked exactly like ML but wasn't ML because of the plot he remembered. However, they were the same person. ML was an actor but working as a waiter to prepare for a role.

ML used this mistaken identity to get close to MC and fell for him. MC also fell for ML. Later MC learned of the truth and they were together without much drama.

SPOILER...

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MC is suppose to be the protagonist of the novel. The novel was written by his mother. Upon his death in the real world, the "order" was suppose to bring MC into the novel and watch over it. However, the order was injured in the real world and rescued by MC. Later, the order was deceived and thought another person had save it. That person died on the same day as MC and the order brought MC and the person into the novel.

The person begged the order to save him, to do this, the order needed to replace the MC with the person. They tried to kill MC but failed each time. The world had to reboot many times. Each time, MC left clues for himself so he could save ML and his family.

Later, the order found out the truth about MC being his savior and killed the person. It then disappeared from the world.