As someone who hates reading about suffering, it was difficult to go through the scenes of him being tortured in that little cage. I hated SJ so much and was glad to see him suffer. Usually I would drop a novel at that point but I was too invested in JB's will to live. It was the first time I've read such desperation for survival.

QY was a real mystery for the first half of the novel. It was hard to determine whether he was a good guy or whether he'll hurt JB but end up together anyway. As JB unravels him everything makes sense. It's clear to see them care more and more about each other without saying anything. QY is honestly the best- his old virg*n ways and their interactions are hilarious (particularly with his frigging cage).

Learning that QY was trapped in the story because he became self-aware was a great twist. Just like JB is fighting to live, QY is fighting against his fate of being a s*um gong. Their relationship is a slow burn which I usually don't like (starting to notice a trend here) but each step felt very natural. QY putting JB as his screensaver was just wholesome shit. Eventually, JB breaks him free from the novel's destiny. In turn, QY breaks him free in the end as well. At times when nobody else believed they would make it, the two never gave up on each other.

QY understands the importance of freedom more than anybody. Whatever JB wants to do or go, he'll support. There was only one time he said no (because of the danger and JB's injuries) however ended up going with JB anyway lol. When JB wanted to go to medical school he built a whole lab for him. When JB interacted with the other targets, QY watched on the side even as others spread rumours. JB also doesn't lead the other guys on even if it would make his missions easier- he would rather endure their anger. Only QY makes him soft.

JB is actually quite an indifferent person with only one focus which is staying alive. For some, it might seem off that he can endure being insulted and beaten over and over. Part of it is because he was used to his Aunt's ab*se in his original world, but another is that he was somewhat disconnected to his new world. Each time he suffers he'll tell himself that he'll be fine after he completes the mission. There aren't a lot of scenes that show his psychological damage from the ab*se. It's not because the author pretends that doesn't happen. After all, other characters are shown experiencing PTSD and drug addiction as a result of trauma. I think it's simply a case of JB's extreme perseverance and his ability to move past things. This might seem unrealistic but it's honestly the only way he could've survived his ordeals with his sanity intact. Someone without his mindset would've been torn apart by SJ's torture or Zizi's revenge or literally dying after finding love. JB doesn't linger on his painful experiences- he never went to visit SJ after, or reunited with the Qin brothers.

The MC transmigrated into a dogblood novel. So everything is here. Including blood and flesh feeding. Literally. The MC is given love drug once. One of the perpetrators is part of his mission list. He is a special force veteran. To help MC fights with the effect of the drug, he feeds MC his own flesh and the blood. If you are asking why his blood has that kind of effect, it's because when he was still active and doing the missions, he was given a lot of drugs. So... Yeah~

if you are not a fan of age gap relationships then this might not be the novel for you. This and the fact that a lot of Chinese novels tends to romanticise giving kisses to another person while they are asleep and the likes, which can be a turn off for some, but yes it's to show that the main lead is a bit of a pe*vert and he had a bit of reason to not go and make this relationship official (cause he might die) with the MC even though they were already acting like a couple