KEJ will always remind us that every single smut scene in this story is r*pe. He may have given up on fighting back, but that is in no way consent to JHK's assault on him. He will remind us again and again, and he doesn't succumb to stockholm. In a way, at least. I don't think he ever fell for JHK, even if he says he loves at him at the end of the story, because it feels more like an obsession as he tries to get back at JHK and tries to kill either him or himself several times.

He's not as extreme as some other yandere gongs and it's not the most intense story out there, but damn was this guy creepy 😭 Especially when he starts repeating his words over and over again, it gave me the chills. He's not exactly super violent towards KEJ either, and he acts like a normal person most of the time, which is what makes me feel so creeped out. He doesn't think he's doing anything wrong at all.

Isn't it a happy ending as long as both leads live?

No, it would've been a happy ending if either or both of them died ma'am 😭😭😭

One day, the MC decides he’s had enough and tries to kill the ML. He escapes to South America, where he tries to evade the military and the ML, but he’s haunted by their relationship. He questions if he loves the ML, has nightmares of actually becoming the ML’s dog (throughout the novel, the ML treats him like one (and I mean that literally)), and it all comes to a head when the ML finds him to take him back. There’s this moment of intense catharsis where the MC decides he does “love” the ML, but not the way the ML “loves” him. Their “loves” are mutually destructive, a situation where neither can live while the other survives, and the MC wants to kill the ML so that his “love” prevails (at least, that’s how I interpreted it).

It seems the two of them will be stuck in a stalemate indefinitely. MC will never be able to kill himself on ML’s watch no matter how hard he tries. MC will keep trying to rile ML up as much as he can. His only hope is for ML to get tired of him but we all know that will never happen. MC’s only escape is when ML slips up. Anyway, I enjoyed the Epilogue a little more than I should (r*pe excluded ofc) and I wish we had more scenes of MC torturing ML like that; I absolutely love it.

As time passes, you can see the MC's mental state gradually becoming weaker through his monologue. His life becomes more and more suffocating. The ML succeeds in implanting his image in the MC's head, but he fails at the same time because he doesn't understand normal humans, so he doesn't understand that while he may succeed, the outcome can be different from what he ultimately wants.

The ML would probably keep his wounds even if he was able to heal himself. I wonder how his families and enemies are going to react to that. And I'm a little curious about the MC's father, the guy who goes blind because of the ML, and I do hope the guy who pretends to help the MC survive somehow... I also wonder about the mpreg thing...

I loved this and I hated it. At the beginning, I thought it would be a "white knight saves damsel in distress" situation. As I kept reading, I realized that was not the case and that this wasn't an "obsessive love yandere" trope. This is a yandere novel -- just the absolute, extremely dark type.

Throughout the novel, I was so uncomfortable reading what befell the MC. Even at the beginning when he was experimented on, I just couldn't help feeling so angry at how unfair it was. It just kept getting worse when JHK (the "ML" or antagonist or however you want to call him) showed his true colors and began to possess the MC.

Reading this was, to reiterate, so uncomfortable. I love that aspect so much -- I love how realistic and emotional reading this made me. It genuinely caused me pain. Everything the MC did made sense to me and I was never upset with him or his decisions. My hatred comes from how unfair everything was, which I think was a big part of why I liked this novel. MC did nothing wrong. He never deserved what happened to him, but was caught up in something he couldn't stop. It starts badly and ends even worse -- from experimentation to torture and confinement.

This is not something for the faint of heart. Read with caution.

Jung Haekyung does a lot of unforgivable things to Kim Euijin, such as locking him in his own home, forcing him to live with him, r**ing him, and bringing a lot of stress and trauma into his life. However, Jung Haekyung was never cruel to Kim Euijin; he never hit him or yelled at him. All that he did was proof that he loved Kim Euijin in his own twisted way.

From being experimented on, to be r**ed by Jung Haekyung, and so much more, his life is really unfair and unlucky.

Sorry to all the folks who are very angry at the ending, but I believe that it is a great ending. Why?

Happily ever after for the two characters? Unrealistic.

Kim Euijin suddenly falls in love with Jung Haekyung?... No.

Jung Haekyung finally realizes he's hurting Kim Euijin? Really unlikely.

So, the two best endings for this novel are: Either one of the characters die or the current ending. And the current ending is best because it gives us a lasting impact on this novel.

the roles are a bit flipped, not entirely due to the nature of their dynamic but it was compelling to read about Euijin using similar tactics agaisnt Haekyung. Although he cannot totally get his freedom back, at least he discovered how to make it hurt for him and gained hope again in order to meet his goal of getting rid of him eventually.

Euijin losing his willpower and most importantly, the conditioning process