Obviously, that man is Chang Yuan or Wu Qiuyu. I don't understand how Zhao Zhao can't continue to love Chang Yuan as Wu Qiuyu. When Wu Qiuyu died, he had said/lied that he'll reincarnate and then come back to him. We, the readers, know that he actually died. But in theory, if Wu Qiuyu actually reincarnates, it would be him, but different. It was always going to be a different version of Wu Qiuyu that came back to Zhao Zhao. Chang Yuan is simply that other version of Wu Qiuyu. And in fact, it's better because he is Wu Qiuyu and all his emotions and memories.

So I don't really get how a sound adult could still not accept it. He was a child, and when we're children, there are things we don't fully understand. Kids are incapable of seeing the whole picture. So my point is that, as much as he loved Wu Qiuyu, he did not understand everything about Wu Qiuyu and what he dealt with. Part of that is that Wu Qiuyu was alone with no memories because he was simply a part of Chang Yuan. Loving Wu Qiuyu means loving Chang Yuan.

Again, it's the author's choice to make Zhao Zhao unreasonable. It's not a choice I like. There's a difference between being ruthless (when he's being mean to Chang Yuan) and unreasonable. Because, even towards the end, Chang Yuan bows to Wu Qiuyu's statue and states that he can never touch or become that Wu Qiuyu in Zhao Zhao's heart. It's irritating, because it's literally him.

Chang Yuan was mean or rather indifferent to Zhao Zhao when he was a disciple. The thing that irritates me about when Zhao Zhao complains about that time is that Chaung Yuan was not his full self. It's stated, multiple times throughout the story, that Chang Yuan was born with a sword heart. But because of Wu Qiuyu, we know that Chang Yuan's primordial spirit was split. All the lofty emotions that he doesn't have (which makes him a perfect God of War), Wu Qiuyu had instead.

The way I understand it is that Chang Yuan was basically incapable of those kinds of emotions. I don't know if it's like he just can't have it or like it couldn't be cultivated normally. But either way, all the emotions/desires Wu Qiuyu had was embedded into Chang Yuan. This is why he saw Zhao Zhao at the pool of regrets. And Chang Yuan didn't understand why. His sword heart was just moved.

So I don't understand why Zhao Zhao doesn't realize that Chang Yuan was incapable of good feelings. And despite that, Chang Yuan is always bothered by him. As a reader, I feel distress for Chang Yuan. I would f*cking want to kill myself if the person I loved and treasured was hurt by me because I couldn't remember. Or because I just couldn't feel. Like Zhao Zhao wasn't just hurt during that time. He literally killed himself, jumping off the cliff. When Chang Yuan got Wu Qiuyu's memories back... sad.

So again, I do not know why Zhao Zhao always talks sh*t and ignores the time he was a disciple. Zhao Zhao's character should care and be in distress over it because he loves and obsesses over his master. But there is no realization of this. And as stated in the previous spoiler, he differentiates Wu Qiuyu and Chang Yuan as two different people knowing they are the same person.

Another bad writing choice in my opinion. The ending makes Zhao Zhao feel like a petulant child. Chang Yuan needs to give Zhao Zhao everything.

I really wish that Chang Yuan realized it himself that his primordial spirit was broken. Then him looking for it himself would have been better. The villain telling him and then giving his memories back right there was a little, as stated above, not good villain storytelling. I also wish that Chang Yuan had got it right before Zhao Zhao lost his memories so that the two stories would be parallel with each other.

I actually really hated that the family did everything with Zhao Zhao after he lost his memories. It made me upset because it was like they loved Zhao Zhao, their baby, but not Zhao Zhao, our main character. And like, they completely erased all his relationships with others from before. Even if being with Chang Yuan may seem iffy, Si Nan was his older brother. Zhao Zhao did love him and give him a lot of medicine. Also, Lingshu, (I thought the author forgot about him, but he came back briefly later) who took care of his naughty ass and guarded his tomb.

Like yea, his life s**ked before. But there were people who still loved him. Like who the f*ck is this family? They just want him to be happy, so they left his memories out. It's messed up. They let him try to get married, but they didn't give him decision on taking his memories back. Because later, he retrieves it. He didn't understand Chang Yuan, but it felt like he knew him. He goes out in the middle of the night and gets his memories back.

After his memories come back, Zhao Zhao's relationship with his family becomes a bit weird and perfunctory. He knows it himself, he's closer to Si Nan than Huai Bi. So it's weird. They always try to integrate him into their family and noble status, but he's not that. He eventually voices it out and refuses their coaxing words (cuz he's insecure). This plotline wasn't actually finished or resolved.

But the family finally realized that they can't keep treating him like he's a little baby. Which is correct. He's not a little baby. He's a grown person who became immortal in the ruthless path. Like a lot happened from his dumb cute days. No one positively chooses the ruthless path. Zhao Zhao is literally the only one known to have finish the trials.

So yea, the family was a bit much for me. I know it sad, but that's what you got. A sad angry baby.

That whole engagement thing made me so uncomfortable. Like, Zhao Zhao lost his memories when he turned into a dragon. It hadn't even been a year and there was talk of marriage. Like peacock, sir, that's a f*cking child. He doesn't even know what a marriage is. Why are you manipulating him into marriage. Gaslighting him because you're so good to him so Zhao Zhao can't be mean to you.

Huai Bi, brother, was all like, he doesn't want to limit Zhao Zhao and make Zhao Zhao second guess himself. If he wants to get married then let him. Just slow it down a little and it should be fine.

Like b*tch, you are a f*cking older brother to someone with memory loss and emotions like a child. You are f*cking sending him off to be groomed and sexually ab*sed at that point. Stop being a little bit*h and take some f*cking responsibility.

All his dumbass had to f*cking say was that the peac*ck was mean with this older brother. He's trying to take you away from your family. It's why he's so nice to you but mean to us. He wants Zhao Zhao to be happy, but sometimes people are liars and try to break them apart. Even though, most marriages require parents' approval, this peac*ck was trying to steal him without their parents knowing.

There dumbass.

And turns out that hoe was monster anyways so it's even worse. Huai Bi came out to assist Zhao Zhao like, obviously you're demon. Like b*tch, really please stop.

They get engaged first and Chang Yuan comes right in the end of the engagement ceremony to steal Zhao Zhao away. Zhao Zhao follows him because Chaung Yuan is so pretty. (a hoe ass older brother only thinking about "the best" for his baby brother really was gonna let a child marry because people be "pretty" when people be "pretty" left and right)

This whole thing annoyed me. Because it wasn't logical. The author does the exact same thing with marriage. Zhao Zhao (memory back) needed to get f*cked up with yang energy so his parents gave him a list of marriage prospects. Chang Yuan robs the marriage and, with his identity, continues the marriage ceremony (that the fiancee set up) as the groom (this actually made me laugh).

So in the end, I think the author just wanted an engagement and marriage ceremony for Zhao Zhao and Chang Yuan. It's just that the engagement plotline was so uncomfortable and irritating.

I am so uncomfortable with the ambiguous romantic tension between Huai Bi and Mo Yu. Like, I know in theory, they knew each other before Zhao Zhao, but it's stated in the story and the synopsis that they look alike. Like, Huai Bi, this man looks like your baby brother. Please f*cking stop. I haven't seen the side stories, but if it's about them.... I can't.

Really not a good choice.

Chang Yuan has not one but 2 disciples besides Zhao Zhao.

Mo Yu is what it is. Chang Yuan saw a boy with a mole on his eyelids at the pool of regrets. He saw Mo Yu again (whose family keeps nagging him to take as a disciple) and decided to take him in because of the mole. Everyone around him say that he loves Mo Yu and tries everything to save him.

Chang Yuan does not care about Mo Yu. I wish this was something realized and spread out into the 3 worlds. Obviously Chang Yuan was looking for Zhao Zhao, but didn't know who and where he was.

Chang Yuan's relationship with all his disciples were hard to analyze. But I finally realized that he does not give out any f*cks. No positive or negative f*cks were given to anyone but Zhao Zhao (again! why doesn't Zhao Zhao realize that was relish in it?).

Mo Yu was a standard and good disciple. He had talent and whatever. Chang Yuan felt guilty that his soul was scattered because of him. So he saved him for his own conscience. Mo Yu is saved, good. Whatever.

Liu Fuying was a horrible person and bad talents and virtues. He was recognized as a disciple for saving Mo Yu. Chang Yuan feeds and clothes him. Good. Whatever.

Everything Zhao Zhao does, Chang Yuan always second guesses it. Why? Cuz if he was a normal person, his ass would've died by Zhao Zhao (lol, it's so funny when Zhao Zhao found out later). But he eats everything Zhao Zhao gives him. Let Zhao Zhao hug him and sleep with him.

So the final analyses is that he didn't care. If anyone ends up as his disciple then they are his disciples. Food, clothes, and some moral guidance. Done. He's not good to any of them. He's just not interested in them. Unless you're Zhao Zhao.

He had to make sure this coquettish goblin didn't go out and kill others.

Mo Yu. Everybody knows why he's there. But I don't know why Chang Yuan still thought he was the boy in the pool of regrets. Or maybe he knew Mo Yu wasn't the boy and left it at that? Didn't care enough.

Liu Fuying. I don't understand why Chang Yuan accepted him as a disciple. Even if Liu Fuying's scheming ass helped Mo Yu, he doesn't need to be a disciple just cuz he asked. All disciples go through assessments and then are accepted by whoever wants them. Chang Yuan should've gave him the chance to be assessed since Liu Fuying couldn't come before.

Maybe he just didn't want to deal with it and accepted him. But this took a long time for me to question until I realized he didn't care.

Also, I can't get over it. 8000 years old and a War Hero. Never questioned the hoe who killed 20 of his peers, stealing their cultivation. A hoe who was a demon. Like my guy, who are you? Are you OP or not?

Zhao Zhao. It was a no for Chang Yuan because he was almost mu*dered by him. Low moral assessment. But when Zhao Zhao cried and grabbed on to him, calling him "master, " it probably triggered the memory from the pool of regrets. So he accepted him.

AGAIN! Zhao Zhao! Please realize that this man had no emotions, but you moved him! Stop shaming my man. He's sorry for you.

I really dislike how when Zhao Zhao lost his memories, he became really childlike. And he was also an extreme face con. Looking at people and giving flowers to beautiful people. It's okay. I don't mind it in general, but in context of Zhao Zhao it was a little weird. Zhao Zhao was known to be mischievous and a bit of a bully as a child. He'd do good deeds too, like give food away. So like, I just didn't really connect this memoryless Zhao Zhao with our Zhao Zhao.

Also, before he hatched, he was known to constantly roll towards Chang Yuan. He would sneak and follow him during the war. There was even a joke from the dad saying that Chang Yuan could take him as a child bride. And obviously, coherent Zhao Zhao loves his master. So, I also think it was a little weird that memoryless Zhao Zhao could give up Chang Yuan.

The family said that even though the memories aren't there, the feelings were deeply woven into him. So that's why he can be a little dodgy and insecure. But then why the f*ck doesn't he like Chang Yuan?

I don't appreciate this little arc. It just doesn't feel like Zhao Zhao. Again, it's why I felt that the family was a little insincere and didn't really seem to love Zhao Zhao.

The buildup to this scene was sad. Even before the scene. He always holds the scale and tells himself that his master, Wu Qiuyu will come back and love him. He tells himself not to covet Chang Yuan and fight his disciple brothers. He has his own master. Then realizing that his master was never going to come back, he broke. 300 years he had that scale. In those 300 years, he developed no permanent and positive relationship. He had nothing and then broke.

I cried a lot during the time when he was stuck in his fantasy. He was slowly dying. And then in the moment of clarity, he apologized to Chang Yuan for everything and jumped off a cliff.

As stated way above, Chang Yuan never seemed to care about Mo Yu. So he never used Zhao Zhao as a substitute. But when he finds out that he was a substitute for Wu Qiuyu... damn. That scene was so good. They fought and then, in the end, Chang Yuan let Zhao Zhao stab his chest.

Chang Yuan deserved it. Because at this point, this man let an insecure child defend themselves into su*cide. It's just that afterward, it was a bit much for me. I felt bad for Chang Yuan. My man's fumbling with how to feel. He can't do much.

Zhao Zhao is too insecure which makes him very impulsive and hasty. He also keeps to himself. Understandable considering how he grew up.

But like, Wu Qiuyu should've told him to stay in the village. The man had some extra breath to be talking about reincarnation but didn't tell the child that he had arranged for someone to take care of him. I know he didn't want to say it before everything bcuz it'll make Zhao Zhao anxious. No one likes talking about deaths and wills. But the man was dying. He had a few extra breaths to say something.

But either way, Zhao Zhao should've stayed. It was his dad that was supposed to come take him. If he had stayed, he would've gone home and grew up with his family. Chang Yuan would've come around and met him. This is apparently the same time he went to the pool of regrets, so if Chang Yuan saw him, he would've accepted him as a disciple or come around more often.

Zhao Zhao would believe he was a reincarnation and everything. He was young, more open, and Chang Yuan had yet to accept a disciple. It also might've triggered Chang Yuan to question if his primordial spirit had split. The timeline is too close. A child knows him and he saw the same child in the pool of regrets. A child, that would normally not know who he is. That's suspicious.

Anyways, would've been done and happy. The story would've been a fluffy child bride love story.

Now that I think about it... I think Zhao Zhao is actually only 500 years old. Chang Yuan really stepping on boundaries. Either way, when Zhao Zhao was a disciple, if he had asked for help at any point, Chang Yuan would've helped him. It also would've triggered him to change how he sees Zhao Zhao. This part could've also saved them a lot of trouble.

she was Zhao Zhao's mother.

MC cooked noodles to please ML and ML got "hungry" so he ate it

but then when he discovered his real identity and his memories were sealed for the second time, he became a s*upid face con and got engaged, almost got married to a random peacock, after "dual cultivating" with ML. Although I think it's so that he can enjoy his childhood again but it became too much for me to bear.

the reason why the ruthless path didnt backfire bc the MC also received the sword cultivation fr ML.

Thought that he is really crooked but he is not. In his everyday life, he is maltreated/abandoned due to his bloodline, working to his limit just to have a place/to be cherished/to improve his cultivation etc while he sees others getting his hard earned dream easily. Yet he chooses to ignore and not brood on jealousy but to keep working

I really like Liu Wenkang and Ye Ming. I really like Liu Wenkang's gentleness and how he's there for Zhao Zhao at the right times. I think there are still some mysteries about him that will probably be answered later or I'm just thinking too much into it.

And Ye Ming. Zhao Zhao dislikes him because he was born with things he could only wish for, like a family. He's quite cold to him but Ye Ming hasn't changed his attitude and don't know if it's because he knows about the yuandan thing and feels guilty or is a hypocrite. We don't really get an insight in Ye Ming at all, most likely so the ch 97 special isn't found out earlier. With how Huaibei treated him after he transformed back to human, I think he might've been in the know about the plan. So, if I'm right I'm hoping for a friendship developing with Zhao Zhao.

Don't read this. I'm embarassed. It's just a small vent so. (Why am I writing out Zhao Zhao's nickname everytime even though it's so long? I like him. I like his character. I like his development, I like who he was at the start of the story, I like who he is now as well. Growing up I never saw any MC's with such negative emotions like jealousy, pettiness and vainness, even though they're emotions as common as the stars and there is not a single person or might I say animal thats has never experienced these emotions more multiple times. It was always villainized and never explored properly. As a kid, I would always feel like I was strange, out of place and definitely an alien. This novel has scratched the itch for that feeling of being understood/understanding. Others might not feel like this novel isn't that deep or didn't make them feel the same way. That's because we're different people with different lifes and experiences. This was a mini vent but I just wanted it out there, for me and for those who feel a similar way.

I mean yeah, I know he's actually pure evil + he's not a real host of the body he is living

An example is when he wanted to help hide the fact that ML was dying, which unfortunately failed... and this things made ML first student immediately hit him and threaten him in front of all people for no reason, and none of them speak up of defended him, even though it's a fact that he was also trying to keep the secret with other ML subordinates.

Despite he had helped MC from the beginning when everything was difficult, it's looks like MC just forgot about him and choose a random new followers.

(the ML).

We get to see our MC being a bit OP which I loved but then he finds out that the master that he spent his whole life living for was framed/killed and decides to revenge him. The story takes a turn when he finds his real family and he loses all of his memories. He changes into a completely different character that I didn't like very much, but it wasn't his fault. His family knew how to give him his memories back but choose to not help him get them back because they feel that he went through a lot and just want him to be happy. But in my opinion that wasn't their decision to make. He had a life outside of them and things he needed to get done, but keeping his memories they deprived him of the chance to grow as a person. Also they don't educate him on some important terminology that almost gets him in a lot of trouble.

From there he gets his memories back and the story gets a bit.... boring. There was a villain story that got added in that after finishing the whole story felt unnecessary. The villain would do something evil they would stop them and they would keep getting away. This happened everytime the villain appeared until they finally killed him. But it didn't feel fulfilling because the MC and ML are so OP, it didn't make sense that they would continuously let their weakened enemy keep escaping them over and over again.

I was a bit hanging with the romance. I wish author could write a bit more on romantic development between characters and give us more sweets.

At the beginning of the novel, MC was traveling to attend a sect selection with his brother. They happened to encounter ML, Chang Yuan, who was disguised and injured. MC thought ML was a nobody so didn't treat him well. He even threw ML out to die in an attempt to save himself.

ML was okay but now knew that MC was not as kind and innocent as his outer appearance. Later, MC does become ML's apprentice but their relationship was pretty superficial. Lots of stuffs happen that I'm not gonna rehash so to summarize, ML comes to love MC and pursue him.

SPOILERS...

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MC is actually of a divine bloodline. When he was still in his eggshell, he was stolen and his dragon Yuandan was removed and replaced with a demon's. Some things happened and he ended up being raised by his "parents".

MC had one goal, it was to reunite with his master. The master he had when he was young. His master said he had to leave to do something and would see MC again years later. The date for their meeting had passed so MC wanted to get strong super quick to go find his master.

BIG SPOILER...

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It turned out that ML was MC's missing master. Years ago, ML had split off a portion of his soul to chase after a demon. This soul lost its memories but still knew to track down and kill the demon. The soul met MC and took pity on him. He took on MC as his disciple and cared for him. However, the soul was injured/contaminated by the demon and had to die so it wouldn't hurt people.

When the soul returned to ML, ML had a vision of MC. ML had forgot about splitting off his soul and was unaware that this vision was the soul's memory. Later ML saw Mo Yu and the mole similar to MC's, so ML took him as his disciple. So Mo Yu was a substitute for MC without anyone's knowledge... even ML. 😂

1 - Aprentice / reaching the school and tryingto become an Aprentice.

Jade Carving - getting a Shifu

Ruthless - choosing and encroaching on the ruthless path. MC dies and ML regrets a lot.

63 - Rising High / 100 years later. MC in amnesiac and ruthless mode.

88 - Dragon Roar / MC sneaks into Dragon Clan to find out about his old shifu. Finds his Dragon heritage instead, including another round of amnesia.

104 - wuwang sea / meeting and almost marrying a Peacock.

114 - Guanyin village / ML gets his memory back. Lots of backstory that should be from the view from ML but somehow is MCs view.

121- return of the soul/ ML sacrifices himself again and finds his soul.

130 - sword of frost / MC finally gets/takes his memory back... and behaves kind of asholey to ML

158 - final volume / another bossfight and another wedding attempt and bride stealing.