Throughout the first part of the chapters, the author shows how cunning and manipulative the MC is by explaining that she won't let fate control her, this world is cruel to those who dont love god, she won't fall in love ect...

With all this explanation, the reader gets a sense that the MC is very determined and hard hearted.

But reality is very different. The MC, Belia (Li Yue) uses machinations to get what she wants but then she wants more things. She gets greedy and then resorts to using the G.o.L (god of light) again even though she says she truly loves him.

But then when her mother is burned at the stake for heressay, an important turning point in her life, she kills the initiator and the text says "something broke inside me too" but she just goes back to how she used to be.

Mind you this event happens right after she realizes that God is too indifferent. Like WAY to indifferent. So it really speaks volumes when she goes back to being the same way despite being set on a goal. At this point it really shows how hypocritical she is.

Even becoming the Goddess of Destiny.

Examples of Belia being proven wrong:

1. 1. When the most devout man of the church who Belia thought of as a threat confront Belia about her disrespect of faith, he shouts at her about how she thinks she's better than everyone because she has no faith, but she's wrong. Faith is good because they all want it. Belia is left speechless and doesn't prove her own perspective because the author agrees with the devout man. This is Belia being exposed and slapped in the face moment, look she pretends to be intellectual and hates faith but its all because she's selfish and narrow-minded, look how conceited and disrespectful she is! Belia's perspective is not taken seriously at all, despite the fact that she isn't wrong, faith can definitely blind people and leave them with no room to move for themselves. This should have been her chance to show her perspective but its used as a chance to shut her down and punish her.

1. 1. When Belia becomes the Goddess of Destiny because she saw the injustice that she herself faced and her friend faces who is the victim of SA being burned at the stake because her own SA is a "crime" against God. This is supposed to be her moment to change the world and free herself, her friend and give all humans the ability to choose their own destiny but instead she just becomes another God and forget about any of her convictions before. She wallows in her sadness and it's proven again that Gaia is correct, she's just an immature child who doesn't understand what humans really want and how necessary God is because when she becomes one she follows Gaia's footsteps.

1. 1. When Belia sees a poor mother having her child taken away because of their family's debt, the mother fights for her child but almost gives up and let her child be sold. Belia hopes that the mother will not abandon the little girl because that's what she wants for herself, she doesn't want to be abandon but she was as a child. In the end the mother doesn't abandon the child and Belia is comforted but turns out it was all because of Gaia's magic, he manipulated the mother to fight for her child and gave Belia the fantasy of familial love. Again, another moment when Belia's beliefs are stolen away from her to prove how good and correct Gaia is. Belia is just so naive and silly for thinking, humans truly love each other that Gaia had to step in to help her.
      
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Belia lost her arm wouldn't happen. That is after they are sort of in a relationship together and he likes her.

Gaia not only SA Belia many times, he imprisoned her, and forced her to marry to him. Not to mention when she leaves him and lives with her mother, he decides to isolate her from her mother by revealing her identity as a transmigrator which forced her mother to attempt to kill her. Something that almost breaks her because she so desperately wants a mother's love and thought she had finally gotten it in this world. The only reason she was willing to go to God's realm in the first place is to find a cure to save her mother. So he knew how much she cared but Gaia is so self-righteous, he wanted to force her mother away from her so he could show her that he is the only one that truly loves her. After that we have the scene where he manipulated the mother with the little girl to deceive her. Everything he does is unforgivable, he is controlling and horrible to her, he doesn't think about her perspective at all but the author is not concern about this. Gaia never gets punished for his actions. Instead Gaia is applauded for being so good to her. In the end, he even sacrificed himself, what a perfect man.

And then I disagree with the comment that said about the "important turning point of her live" and then said thatFL just goes back to the way she used to be.

I think that part is not "the important turning point of her live" since the event like that already happen before her mother got burned. This part most likely show us that FL streghthen her determination.

Then the ML was pretty much fine, althought I kinda hate him a lil XD. But in the description it states that this story involve the girl chasing a boy and then the man chasing her wife. I kinda think that this is just too false. It is more like the girl chasing a boy and *insert many event here since I forgot* and then near the end of the novel finally the event the man chasing his wife happen.

It is just.. Too.. I forgot the word (bad). CAUSE I NEED MOREE SWEET PART

I didn't even know she genuinely liked the incarnation of the ML if she didn't say it in her monologue. I don't trust her love anymore it's not that I even trust it in the first place but still, despite that, I like her character. She's headstrong and independent, I like it when she doesn't do anything but the side characters that originally should have liked the og FL got interested in her and she uses their feelings accordingly. She's not perfect, she has too many flaws that before reading this, I don't like traits in an MC but after reading this, I still don't like it but she's an exemption. Idk if she did everything right but I only know that she did everything to survive, it that wrong? In the eyes of the victim and others, yes, but in the eyes of a reader who oversees all? No. She's perfectly flawed and I like it.

All comments about him are def a spoiler. We met him together with the MC through the og novel's trajectory. The MC plucked his eyeballs and now that I'm writing this, the author didn't explain why the og host plucked the ml's eyeballs out of nowhere. Anyway, he started as Gaia Leslie or they mostly call him Mr. Leslie. He's the perfect definition of an untainted and pure human. He's kind but not overly. Benevolent but knows the limit. That's why he got tricked by the MC, maybe he doubted her but because of his kind nature, he chose to trust her. He's s*upid but only to Bellia.