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I Became the Childhood Friend Who Must Die Once to Awaken. So, Just Let Me Die

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자살하는 소꿉친구가 되었다
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Qsxwdcefv
Qsxwdcefv rated it
November 7, 2024
Status: c6
I'd like to echo the sentiments of VLADISLAKA's review. Some of the things the protagonists do are just baffling. It's like they were lobotomized before they entered the story...

It just stumps me how, when considering the different ways to off one's self subtly, the first thing our protagonist thought of was to go to the science laboratory during a non-school day and chug hydrochloric acid.

First of all, it doesn't take a genius to figure out that schools would keep a place with hazardous substances and a high risk... more>> of starting a fire like the lab locked when there are no classes. That means it's inevitable that you would have to ask for the keys or break in somehow - neither option exactly embodying subtlety.

Secondly, even if for some reason the school didn't lock up the lab, no school worthy of calling itself one would just leave substances that could lead to students' deaths out in the open. They would likely be locked up somewhere safe that only a teacher of lab assistant could access due to the inherent dangers.

Lastly, even if somehow the acid was just on a table in an unlocked science lab and ready to drink, what about the aftermath? It's impossible no one would notice a missing amount/container of concentrated hydrochloric acid (dilute HCl would not be enough to kill someone, at most cause severe irritation and injuries to your digestive tract) at the latest whenever the acid is required for a class (assuming nobody keeps count of the lab inventory regularly, which is unlikely) and that would definitely cause a commotion. Who knows what someone bold enough to steal concentrated acid from a school lab would do next? Guaranteed that law enforcement gets involved once they find out. Then, all they'd have to do is check the CCTV footage and our protagonist would be instantly found out. Again, not exactly subtle.

That's at least 3 major leaps in logic for one part of one incident. The decision to go through with this plan led to a few other events that also contain similar nonsense. The most egregious of which was probably

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Hana deciding to take suspicious pills that the "teacher" that accompanied her to the lab randomly gave her. This, despite the fact that our protagonist is aware that villain figures in the school tried to brainwash/hypnotize Hana and the fact that she noticed she suddenly passed out when alone in the science lab with said "teacher". Then she somehow comes to the conclusion " Eh, what's the harm in taking these suspicious pills from a suspicious teacher in a setting when I should be suspicious of everyone" and promptly swallows one... Just what in the world is the author's train of thought when attempting to justify this action?

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Anyway, enough about my rant. In conclusion, the author can't seem to or simply doesn't want to think of reasonable/logical ways to progress the plot. What they end up doing is giving their characters room temperature IQ to justify their idiotic actions so that the plot can be forcibly progressed. It ends up being very unnatural and even frustrating to read. The only reason I'm not giving this a one star review is because I am reviewing at 6 chapters from nearly 120 (i.e. 5% of the story) so it's to balance out the very early review. However, I can't bring myself to read further after witnessing the atrocious way the author progresses the story. I don't expect much from web novels and especially not TS novelpia works, but this is a new low.

If you like a similar premise, I highly recommend you check out I Became the D*ug-Addicted Childhood Friend instead. Both works are very similar, but that one has significantly more tolerable writing, imo. At the very least, any illogical actions could be chalked up to substance addiction there. Hana doesn't even have that going for her. <<less
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VLADISLAKA
VLADISLAKA rated it
November 3, 2024
Status: c15
The protagonist is a complete imbecile, and infuriatingly so.

Having transmigrated into the body of Hana, a potential awakener whose ability's unlock condition is dying once, who also suffers from recurrent fits of intense pain, they decide to kill themselves secretly to solve the problem asap.

Why secretly? Because she doesn't want to attract attention. How does she plan to commit su*cide quietly and quickly? Go to the science lab and ingest some poison/acid. What does she do when she finds out that the science teacher is trying to get her addicted... more>> to some substance that her body screams to her is dangerous, is potentially a member of this demon organisation, trying to hypnotize/manipulate her into exposing her childhood friend's vulnerabilities and a definite enemy? She decides to reject anyone who offers to help her or approach, willingly alienating everyone who's found about her intentions to kill herself, on the off chance that they are an ally to the demon and are helping the science teacher.

Here comes her childhood friend Kim Si Woo who knows she's trying to kill herself, and he asks what's wrong and if he can help, as her plans were so blindingly obvious almost everyone she's met has found out. She knows he's guaranteed to be trustworthy, she knows he knows already, but pushes him away for no reason and pretends that nothing happened (guaranteed to fail since everyone knows already). She then decides to head to the science teacher once again for no reason and tells Si Woo just that. The undercover demon there of course once again offers her the same suspicious but incredibly tempting substance that she accurately identifies as an attempt to brainwash her. At that moment she decides to stay in the science lab and ingest her own painkiller next to the incredibly trustworthy undercover demon who has on multiple times made her faint and tried to manipulate her into potential mindbreak episodes (which she is aware of). Meanwhile, Si Woo asks around about the science teacher, who once again is very obviously a snake, a liar and someone deeply suspicious as multiple students have already been able to tell.

So in summary, Hana (the protagonist)...

-tries to fake being completely normal and pushes away her completely trustworthy childhood friend away while lying that she's fine despite knowing that he's aware already of her suicidal intentions

-repeatedly goes to the science teacher with nobody around and tells her only friend just that, all the while knowing him to be an evil demon operative trying to corrupt her and sometimes coming awfully close to succeeding.

-lies and pushes away everyone else because they might be an ally to the science teacher, despite it never having been written in the original novel which she's read

-tells absolutely nothing of this to anyone and continues to try finding fast and quiet ways of secretly killing herself... such as once again going to the science lab and ingest some acid right in front of an already identified demon operative trying to brainwash her with no one else nearby

The author has no idea how to write non-mentally handicapped people, as the other characters aren't exactly particularly intelligent either. Don't expect anyone to act in an intelligent manner or change strategies that have already failed multiple times either, instead precisely acting so as to generate a maximum amount of misunderstanding even when there's absolutely no reason to do so. <<less
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zyd
zyd rated it
October 29, 2024
Status: c16
A decent story with not in the right mind MC

The story is as the title say, MC found that he got transmigrate into a Novel support character who barely got any role but after do it she got awaken the ability

So the MC try to do it for following the plot and end her suffering from illness

... more>> However those around her doesn't know her reason and try to stop her from doing so They even deny her reason

At some point you will start question if she believing story is true or it's just her mind doesn't normal

Quite interesting story <<less
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Sareza
Sareza rated it
November 1, 2024
Status: Completed
Warning: This novel contains heavy suicidal themes, especially in the beginning. Please remember this is fiction, and if you're struggling, reach out for help, you're not alone.

The story is about the protagonist, who finds himself reincarnated as a childhood friend who can only awaken powers by committing su*cide. However, to successfully awaken, he has to die and revive in a span of three days without being noticed by anyone. We see him constantly failing in his attempts to do this in secret.

Around the middle of the story, there's a drastic... more>> shift in the plot. But, surprisingly, I liked this change. Instead of a typical soap-opera-style story, the narrative gradually builds, with mysteries being uncovered and plot twists taking place, making the plot increasingly fascinating.

One of the most essential elements of this novel, for me, is its use of foreshadowing. Personally, I enjoy stories that introduce and follow through on intriguing hints (assuming everything eventually ties together). The novel shines with its subtle hints, which are scattered throughout the story in a way that keeps readers returning to earlier chapters to spot the cleverly hidden clues.

In this novel, clues are often woven into the narrative subtly, rather than outright. They might not even appear significant at first. Still, when they unravel, it almost feels like the reader returns to earlier parts of the story to rediscover these clues, especially critical ones that make you wonder if the writer might be a genius.

Yet, the novel does have its shortcomings. While Hana and Siwoo's arcs and foreshadowing are handled exceptionally well, the side characters are underdeveloped. It seems like there were plans for side stories to cover for this, but it's been two years now, to me, side stories in novels are like DLCs in games, they add value, but they aren't quite the core experience, to be honest I preferred these backstories woven into the main story through flashbacks or other narrative devices, rather than an add-on.

The novel's structure reveals another issue, the lack of character depth for supporting roles. Hana and Siwoo's arcs are beautifully crafted, but the other characters remain somewhat hollow.

Reflecting on it, I think that if more exploration had gone into Hana's time with a significant figure from her past, rather than skipping those six months, it would have enriched her story and added more depth to her role in the overall narrative. The backstory for other main characters and side characters also feels limited, with many characters exiting the story before their personalities and motivations are fully developed.

These choices may have been made to avoid dragging out the story, fearing it might become dull. Since web novels are typically designed for quick, bite-sized updates, readers often dislike excessive build-up and prefer straightforward resolution. Some even dismiss any form of foreshadowing as unnecessary buildup.

I, however, enjoy the buildup. Like savoring a hard-earned fully-riped apple, I find it satisfying when a story takes time to set up a truly memorable payoff. Without build-up, dramatic moments lack impact. Because of this, web novels tend to lack the depth and well-constructed buildup that could make them stand out. The novel had the potential to reach this level but, ultimately, fell short.

Despite these issues, the novel's unique pacing, early despair-laden themes, intriguing concepts, and masterfully crafted dynamics between Hana and Siwoo are so compelling that they make up for its flaws. It may not be a masterpiece, but it's a solidly enjoyable read.

In short, I Became the Childhood Friend Who Commits su*cide is like a bird with huge wings that couldn't take off completely because it was missing a few essential feathers. It had so much potential, how unfortunate. It's definitely worth a read.

PS. Happy Halloween everyone! Also, if you like this novel, go check out that Drug-Addicted novel, it's being rewritten (?) by the author and it's doing pretty well. <<less
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zhanxian rated it
November 4, 2024
Status: --
Theres quite a bit of gnostic symbolism in this, if you are familiar with the subject you will be able to pick up the hints pretty easily and start to see where the author is going with it. Her behavior and suffering will also make a lot more sense if you put it in that context. If you don't understand the name drops and references you will be confused and wonder just what the heck is wrong with this poor girl and why half the korean cast has suspiciously western... more>> names for apparently no reason.

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Reject the demiurge, hate the antichrist.

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Rosten
Rosten rated it
February 14, 2025
Status: c90
I came into this expecting some level of angst, emotional turmoil, and maybe a protagonist struggling against their fate in a somewhat intelligent manner, or perhaps even losing their mind like in Miss, Stop Committing su*cide. What I got instead was a main character, Hana, who seems determined to make the worst possible decisions at every turn.

Let’s start with the basics: ... more>>
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Hana knows she has to die once to awaken her ability.

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Fine. But the way she goes about it is mind-bogglingly s*upid. The first thing she thinks of is drinking acid in a school laboratory, as if that’s the most discreet way to die. Does she consider how schools would logically not leave hazardous chemicals lying around? No. Does she think about the obvious forensic trail she’d leave behind? Also no. And the best part? She goes through with this plan multiple times, even when she’s fully aware that people around her are watching her like a hawk.

And there's other ways she planned to die.
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Hanging herself, cutting herself, several horrific ways to die in which her awakening wouldn't even WORK, because she can't have people find her body for three days. Every way she planned to die would inevitably have someone stumble upon her body, leaving this as the single-dumbest way to go about it.

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Then, there’s her approach to literally every other conflict in the story. She identifies a teacher as a clear threat—someone who has drugged her, manipulated her, and is obviously connected to a sinister organization. So what does she do? She keeps walking into his trap over and over again, rejecting any help from the one person she knows for certain she can trust, her childhood friend Kim Si Woo. Why? Because... plot reasons, I guess?

The author seemingly cannot progress the story without making every character a complete idiot. Hana’s entire strategy for dealing with danger is “do the worst possible thing and push away everyone who could help me.” Meanwhile, the villains are the most blatantly suspicious people imaginable, yet nobody—except the audience—seems to notice or care. It’s like watching a horror movie where the protagonist insists on running toward the creepy noise in the basement, except it’s not just once—it’s every single chapter.

There’s a difference between a flawed protagonist and one that’s just painfully lacking in common sense. Hana is the latter. If you’re hoping for a gripping psychological thriller about trauma and redemption, look elsewhere. This is just an exercise in frustration, and I can’t keep reading a story where the biggest horror is the protagonist’s complete lack of survival instincts.

Overall, it's not a terrible read, but it's one you have to pass through a few mental hoops to deal with. <<less
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