THERE IS SA, PHYSICAL ASSAULT AND SCENES THAT MIGHT BE UNCOMFORTABLE FOR READERS (e.g MC mentioning his job, licking customers' privates, sleeping with them, ML mentions of banging women.)

I could feel the regret in these characters—their emotions and motives—even though I, the reader, am not in the same mud as them. The MC is a fantastic character, and just 9 chapters in, there's already so much to say. I could feel his hatred and regrets, even when he claimed that he shouldn't regret, that he got into the mess himself. That was a lie he told himself. He did regret his past—his decisions.

The moment that really wrenched my heart was when he berated himself for not even knowing his own hometown—the place where his roots were. He played around, but deep down, he wanted a normal life like everyone else. But he was never "normal." Born from a gigolo, not raised like one, but ended up acting like one. Every time he said, "I'm tired, " even if it was in a different context, makes him feel really suicidal.

The ML is also a great character, and I appreciate that the author gave depth to both of them. You might hate the ML—but honestly, I couldn't bring myself to. Yes, the ML assaulted the MC and kept getting entangled with him. His actions shouldn't be tolerated, but the MC tolerated them. He needed money, sold his body for a dream.

The ML is a playboy (or at least has that reputation). He's vulgar. When the MC got beat up so badly he needed facial surgery, the ML didn't apologize. He never apologized to anyone—so why would he? To a host? In his club? I didn't understand it, but it was a matter of pride. A kind of pride I don't have. However, he did try to apologize in his own ways, money. By bringing MC shopping, go drinking with women, getting him plastic surgery and so on. I really hope that the author does his character development good.

He has mental issues—both of them do, actually. The ML didn't know how to love. He was born from lust or that's what I believed. ML is a raw character, he is lustful, aggressive but.. He's gentle, albeit trying for MC

The development is not too fast, not too slow but just enough in a span of 11 chapters. MC didn't immediately become infatuated without doubts, ML learnt to pamper MC.

You can see their development, from being just a s*x toy to something more :))

"We ate heartily and drank. I grabbed the mic, sang, and he smoked, watching me with delight.

Barefoot in this fancy room I loved, I sang, danced, drank."

Great pacing, reading the chapters never felt like a chore.

f*ck that about anything I've said about male lead, absolutely tr*sh, no redemption. I f*cking hate this novel beyond. Do not read.