There was this character, the one who recommended Mu Ran to take pills and all. I personally found her, forced. She seems pretty professional in that field, and within that realm millions of people like Mu Ran exist. I feel as though Author was just using her as a gate, to keep the readers from feeling too frustrated. If I was in her position I would never step out of my position and get all empathetic for a client.

As for Yi Tian, I found all his actions somewhat okay, of course that was until author pushed the whole problem part to that he xudong guy or whatever his name was.I mean you can't blame him, he was r*ped and blackmailed I don't understand why some people were taking Mu Ran's side at the beginning. If a person was r*ped, no doubt society would justify the killing of the rapist. So I don't particularly see any problem with Yi Tian abusing Mu Ran. Of course author tries covering it all up by making Mu Ran a scapegoat and that other people made him do it, pushed him to do it, pressured him to do it yatiyati you get my point.

Like the way he approaches the MC's depressive and suicidal bout seems so callous and cold. But when you hear his reasoning for behaving that way. It is heartless but you can understand his reasoning too. He thinks the MC's behaviour is a call for his attention. That he brought him home with him so the MC would be all fine now and would start clinging to him once again. And why shouldn't he think that way, afterall in the previous paragraphs he thinks about all the horrible things he and his friends have done to the MC. How he made a game out of seeing what the MC's bottom limit was but he never complained and stayed with him in the relationship. Although his reasoning was arrogant but there was some basis as to why and how he behaved.

an adopted girl child.

which according to the spoilers isn’t true, way to make the MC more pitiful

the discharge from the hospital after MC trying to kill himself

for a bad ending, but sadly, no such luck. Despite the fact I found myself praying that the MC would run away from his ab*ser--run, run until your vapour trail evaporates!--we ended up with a reconciliation. Frankly, I think the writer just got tired of wallowing in the angst and decided to the pull the plug. Just wave a fairy wand over the whole mess, and call it done.

that includes the female character who was presumably written as the MC's guardian angel. Get this. She's married to a guy who has admitted to her that he planned and executed a cruel event purely for the purpose of sick fun. She knows this and yet, she keeps dangling this same creep in front of his victim. Sorry, that doesn't parse. She's no guardian angel, despite all her finger-pointing rants.

with his mom

When Muran finally got his own family I really feel sOoOO gratified, , , , FINALLY!! him picking a little girl who's unwanted like him really clutches my heart. then in the end, he got ML's love too, and even to the point that ML wants to accompany him if he dies first.

Muran's low self esteem and depression are very apparent. Despite being in a situation where most people would grow black heart, Muran continues to hold onto basic morals... bar that one time with ML... when he loves tho, it consumes his everything. He'll give anything at all that he can to his family. I think because he never felt loved, he tries to give out his heart so that someone may respond back to him. It's so pitiful and lovable.

The reason why I can't give it full 5 is because it's a bit 2D sometimes, people seems to only think one way and there's not much character development. Good or bad, there is a lack of 'predestined conclusion' to this story, so reading it will feel organic and relaxing, just like reading some normal people's life unfolding. The fact that MC's kid is a girl nearly pushes it to 5 because it's so rare to see a daughter in BLs, blood or not. But I still can't, the angst is overpowering sometimes, it still feels like something is still lacking to make it a 5. I think it it was shorter, maybe? because then I'll only focus on one or two heartbreaks and not the prolonged misery.