-When they have a relationship, LY never intend to hide his sexuality and relationship from the start. Although he want to publicized it when he was successful enough to be worthy of SM. I kinda impressed with that.

-LY dad family, I just love how he deal with them. He never want to get in touch with his s*um dad family because he think It's a disgrace. It's very much real as I'll do that too if I were him.

the MC take a role in a movie which he know will won a big time and the lead actor in it will receive also big importing awards, that why he accept the role later he meet and work with the person he take the opportunity from him the MC felt tiny guilt about it and nothing else, he give himself many excuses that what he did is nothing wrong with it. I felt sorry for the person whose future luck was stolen from him especially known that role was turning point for that person. I couldn't feel the MC after this

After all the chapters I read, I still don't really know why he's interested in showbiz. It just states that he likes to act. And obviously, our MC cannot only act, he can sing as well. He can also play instruments (violin mostly). He's got a personality and an all-rounder.

Anyways, because of issues with the ML's brother, MC signs in with ML's company with a very loose contract and he gets an amazing, well-known, agent. So basically, MC did nothing, but because of the ML's favorability, he gets an amazing head start as a "newcomer" to the industry.

What happened was the ML liked the MC, the first for his assuming 30 year old virg*n self, and offered to sponsor MC. ML's younger brother sponsors a lot of artists, so the ML probably got the idea from his brother. MC refuses, because he doesn't want to sell himself for benefits. ML's brother retaliated against MC and later ML apologizes with that contract as stated in the previous paragraph.

MC didn't sell himself, but he still got the benefits.

With his new agent, MC offers no opinions (except once because he knew that a script would be an international hit and a Cannes Award winning film). He lets his agent do everything because he trusts the agent's work. So basically, MC kind of does nothing. He doesn't seem to have any interests except being popular because that's what it means to be a "celebrity." Obviously, people will talk about him. He can't do anything about that. He also has a proper and right attitude, so he always saves people because it is correct to do so. Later, in an interview, he deliberately states that he would actually hesitate to save a guy though. He does this because a bit of "controversy" will help him be a better "star" to the public.

It just feels like, he has no emotions and is very robotic. But at the same time, he has his "dignity" because he doesn't sell himself.

Like no, my guy, you took the benefits and gave nothing back.

The tags say "Seme Protagonist" but reading it, the MC felt more like a shou/uke/bottom (however you want it). And honestly, it makes me uncomfortable, because it feels like the MC does like the ML, but doesn't trust him.

When I read this, I just saw the synopsis and went into it. I didn't know that the MC would be the top. So I had a very honest reaction to the plotline and characters for this romance. For reference, I love reading seme protag novels, but I don't review much since I'm usually on my phone and only made an account after the chapter links were blocked. So this hate I have is not due to MC being top.

Let's just start off with their first time together. ML originally wanted to sponsor the MC. So I knew that he envisioned topping the MC. I knew it. ML knew it. And the MC knew it. All three of us f*cking knew it.

But it is the moment they are in bed that MC turns ML over (or whatever, I don't remember the correct order but!) and touches his as*hole and asks if "this was okay?" The ML is a bit speechless and lets him continue. The ML feels embarrassed, uncomfortable, and a bit of pain. I felt bad for the ML because I kind of felt like he was manipulated into being that vulnerable.

Like I said. We all knew. Okay? If the MC didn't want to bottom, he should've said it before and not in the heat of the moment. The romance in this story runs on emotions and patience. And this scene made me very uncomfortable.

Previously, they were both pretty proactive in their kissing. And yes, the MC messed with the ML's chest. But I still thought the MC would be bottom. But I guess that's just the rule in gay literature. The person's whose nipples are s**ked on gotta be bottom. lol

ANYWAYS, here's the other part why I thought the MC would be bottom.

Because of his mom, the MC has issues. He doesn't want to fall in love and then be abandoned like his mother. His mom was crazy and would hate the MC for being the child of his father while he'd be bullied outside for being a "wild seed." And yet, his mom still obsessed over the MC's father.

The MC knew that if he were to fall in love, he'd be like that too. Obsessed. He was moved by the ML's actions, but it wasn't enough. He needed to know that the ML would never leave. He needed to know that the ML would choose him over the ML's younger brother.

It's unhealthy but he needs that.

I thought MC would be bottom, because I thought he could finally relax himself and let go. Just let himself be loved.

In addition, he needs so much to trust the ML. I thought after getting what he needed to feel secure, he would reward the ML with all his vulnerability.

Because, well, this romance ran on emotions and patience.

Anyways, I got none of that. I just felt like the MC manipulated/pressured the ML to be bottom in the heat of the moment and he didn't really trust the ML.

The ML gave all those benefits to the MC at work. He gave the MC his dignity of not being a sponsored artist. He was the one that constantly showed up and called the MC. The ML gave everything he could.

The MC took everything and gave nothing back.

It feels uncomfortable because this relationship feels very unequal. It's not that being bottom puts someone at a disadvantage in a relationship. It's the lack of vulnerability and trust from the MC.

Like if they were real people, I'd tell the ML to leave the MC. Just because he has trauma, it doesn't mean that the MC can't put in the effort for this relationship. You work so hard and act like a wife who is minding her husband and his emotions, while he gives you nothing before you even start the relationship. After the relationship starts, and after marriage, there are going to be more expectations of you while all the MC has to do is buy flowers one day. And that would apparently be good enough from the MC's side. That's not okay. You're gonna run dry and become bitter.

I honestly don't think even knowing that the MC was the seme before reading this would make me feel differently. I always just hate relationships that feel unequal. It could get better, but for now, IDK.

If he had no sad backstory, he'd just be scum. But he didn't ask for it, they all gave it to him on their own. And he asked, so it was okay for him to top. Like... stop! We all knew!