mentions of s*xual ab*se towards a minor, mentions of casting couch, h*mophobia/homophobic jokes, main character disgusted by male touch.

Liang Sizhe:

- 2 years and 3 months older than Cao Ye

- A brilliant actor, relying more on method acting in the past, but now more easily separates himself from the role

- Very secretive, responds "guess?" when he doesn't want to answer a question

- Brooding loner in his youth with a bit of a temper, was much more flamboyant and confident before his accident

- Quietly doted (and still dotes) on Cao Ye

Cao Ye:

- Son of famous director, daddy issues

- "I'm not interested in men", has a repulsion to being touched by members of the same sex

- Gets along with everyone, easygoing, but with a reverse scale for Liang Sizhe

- Playboy, new girlfriend every 2 months

- Very innocent and pure hearted in his youth

"They seemed to be born on the same wavelength and could receive each other's signals. Perhaps this feeling was too rare, so after so many years, Cao Ye still missed the feeling of chatting together on Yinsi Street." (4.4)

Unexpectedly, Liang Sizhe dropped a bombshell the next second: "I have a crush on your cousin, don't you see at all?" (4.7)

"Nothing." Cao Ye said, thinking to himself, he's so pretty, why isn't he a girl? If he was a girl, he would definitely date Liang Sizhe. (5.5)

The days without Cao Ye were much more boring, but it was also a return to normal. There were no interesting things, and no opportunities to laugh. Perhaps "loss" was too common in his life. He had lost his parents, hobbies, future... He had lost many important things before, so he subconsciously knew calmly that he would lose Cao Ye soon. All losses were no big deal. Life had to go on, whether you were willing or not. (5.9)

Helpless, at a loss, and doomed... He had experienced all these emotions in the past year. He had developed the ability to block out his emotions and fall into a deep dream. This time was no exception. He cleared all thoughts from his brain, leaving only endless darkness, and forced himself to sleep. (5.12)

He's a bit like Lin Huan, Cao Ye suddenly had this thought in his mind. No wonder he felt that Lin Huan looked familiar when he first saw her. At that time, he thought that they hit it off at first sight and even used the excuse to strike up a conversation. But he never thought about Liang Sizhe. In those years, he always avoided thinking about Liang Sizhe. Thinking of him would make him feel inexplicably upset.

However, Liang Sizhe on that poster was more beautiful than Lin Huan, a thought which may seem absurd, as a man playing a woman should look a bit weird, but the overall feeling of the poster could not be described in any other words except "beauty", a kind of beauty that transcends gender and combines both strength and softness. It is beautiful in a unique way, even a bit erotic. (6.4)

So it's no big deal not to be with the person you like. Instead of the two of you becoming enemies in the end, it's better not to start at all and eliminate all possibilities of things going wrong. (7.5)

Become very powerful. Powerful enough to protect the innocence of the young one. (7.9)

They talked and laughed all the way up the mountain. Cao Ye felt that being with Liang Sizhe was much more interesting than being with a girl.

He thought that if Liang Sizhe could not accept Cao Ye getting drunk late at night and bringing home a girl he doesn't know, then he would just change. He only went to find girls to have fun because he was bored, but he didn't feel bored at all when he was with Liang Sizhe. (8.5)

Life is so helpless. Ten years ago, my parents who accompanied me passed away suddenly. Ten years later, even the only dog who accompanied me is gone. (8.8)

"Are you very sad, Liang Sizhe?" Cao Ye couldn't help but ask.

There was silence over there, and after a moment he said, "It's okay, I'm used to it." He paused, and then said, "Whether it's a person or a dog, there will be a day when they leave, it's just a matter of time. I figured this out many years ago." (8.9)

Those words that he wanted to avoid, that he didn't know how to respond to, that he never dared to think deeply about, now pointed to one clear thought word by word: Liang Sizhe likes you, he has liked you for many years. (10.1)

"Cao Ye, I'm going to kiss you, " Liang Sizhe looked at him and lowered his voice, "I heard that you are homophobic, so this action may make you feel uncomfortable. I will approach you slowly, and you have about ten seconds. You can avoid me at any time." (10.2)

Cao Ye left -leaving script with this note "Good morning, Liang Sizhe. You must win the Best Actor Award. See you at the awards ceremony!" Gosh!!! This is so pure/raw feeling I cried for 10min and wasn’t able to move forward. It will rip your heart out.

——With his dog, he stood at the door in the bright afternoon sun and called his name. The tall boy and the half-man-high dog looked majestic at first glance.

That was the most vivid scene of his boyhood.

——Successful and alone, perhaps this is my destiny.-LS