Even when CWN says that it wasn't MR's fault MR doesn't take the chance practically offered to him he insist he is responsible for all the things done by himself

Well in a certain chapter MR had to go to underworld to retrieve CWN's soul MR is measured of sins and was judged whether he should be allowed to re-enter the reincarnation cycle or his soul should be obliterated. He was judged not to be a sinner there. You'll see why by the end of the novel. In 3rd book if I remember right

Some actions of hidden mind mastermind the way he react to some of MR's actions, Why MR was behavior was very contradictory to his deep route hatred, TXJ's actions in last life like torturing CWN yet favoring him over his empress in a little twisted way, Like I mentioned before why MR was allowed to enter the underworld, why MR has two devine weapons in two lifetimes, how MR was reborned... etc

the reason why the MC r*ped the ML and was evil in the past was cause he had a magical evil demonic flower on him, which removed all his goodness, it made him almost a marionette of the villain, a souless, heartless, so is not his fault. You can see notes about this through the novel, how he can't remember good things that people made to him, how he can't understand how he did all those bad things, how he looked sick in the past, etc

hate, love, disgusting, compassion, annoyed, respect... it left me confuse

I just wanted to say that I love Mo Ran and Mo Ran is a good boy;;;; He accepted to become a monster and a puppet who can't control his actions for the person he loves. Hell, even his perception is distorted and he cannot even remember the good deeds his precious Shizun does for him anymore. It breaks my heart to see how much hate he gets (lol as if he's a real, living person). People believe that we justify his actions because he started to change and became a better person after Shizun's death. Hell no! We forgive him because those horrible deeds were not his actions in the first place. There is nothing to justify when those actions didn't even belong to the real Mo Ran.

That's why, I have a soft spot for Taxian Jun as well. Because he was once the boy who was saving earthworms. He is also the person who took the flower on behalf of his beloved. For me what he did is a sacrifice that is even greater than dying for your love. And in the end, he became a monster who continuously hurt his love for years, both physically and mentally. The scene right before his s*icide is one of the most heartbreaking ones -you know when he tried to go back to his disciple days and the clothes didn't even fit. I could perfectly visualize the expression full of despair and disbelief on his face. Surely, one of the best scenes of the book for me.

Anyways I could go on for hours but I'll stop here. Please support the author legally if you can<3

come on, dude realised he was wrong, and, had the courage to admit and apologize. And he truly regretted everything, and tried his best to right his wrongs (and note this, before he realise that he was purposefully turned into a monster and being used, he initially thought it was his own s*upidity and mistakes that lead him astray, and truly felt bad). In my opinion, even if he doesn't deserve a praise, he certainly deserves some acknowledgement for his efforts.

Besides, he began harming CWN, falling for Shi Mei and doing immoral things only after his emotions and memories were corrupted by that flower. And by the time he became TaXian Jun, he had lost most of his sanity. I wonder if people have actually forgotten or missed (or still haven't reached) that part about that flower accident?

Anyway, he was a r*pist, a psychopath and a sh*tty human being, but still, it can't be ignored that this was because of an outside factor beyond his control. Mo Ran was no Saint from the start, but he certainly wouldn't become someone like TXJ if not for that flower.

Yes, CWN loved Mo Ran deeply, but he initially showed strong resistance to TXJ, and fought back violently every time TXJ tried to s*xually assault him. Even after being r*ped several times by TXJ, he never gave in, and openly displayed his unwillingness.

His resistance collapsed only after he discovered the truth about the flower, and how his disciple had sacrificed himself for him (CWN), resulting in the kind and cheerful Mo Ran being turned into the cruel, ruthless TXJ. CWN only gave into TXJ after knowing that truth, because he felt he had failed to protect his disciple as a Shizun, and was deeply remorseful. CWN blamed himself for indirectly causing the flower to be implanted on Mo Ran.

she described how Mo Ran 2.0 always asked for consent and respected the boundaries after sincerely pursuing his beloved. In my opinion, it's done deliberately to show that Mo Ran 2.0's way is the correct way to properly love someone, while TXJ's way was not.

the sacrifices both wan ning and mo ran made for each other were endless, wan ning's suffering was told much earlier in the story, whereas mo ran's was only told much later in the novel. hence I could see why some readers who dropped 2ha halfway may have this misconception of his character (im guilty of this as well) although I stayed to see his redemption arc, I still had much doubts of his morals bc alot of his past actions were simply too hard to forget.