li shou was my fave while reading sissy so i ran here cause i did not like how he was being treated over there and the rage i have for shao qun was sooo consuming i hate HATE HAAATED the sh*t out of him. i was rly excited for this one cause i'm cheering for li shou also jinxin seemed like he'll entertain me and he did, honestly he could've done crazier things hehe. tho i got rly pissed off everytime they'd mention chengxiu and shao qun especially ESPECIALLY SHAO QUN but towards the end it was rly amusing how he had to find out and accept that his brother is now down bad for... more>> li shou lmaooo chapter 77, scrumptious.

loved this! every chapter was compelling (dreaded chengxiu x shao qun's existence tho i truly disliked their combination and did not want them here) like i was giddy the entire time agshfhdjsjsjnkdkkskskd i did not like xu durai or wtv tho but they kept it short so that's fine it was mentioned that jinxin was supposed to kidnap li shou the night the xu dairy incident happened and i might have liked that more (since i want more chapters :(( they're rly fun to read about i did not want it to end huhu) but this is not bad (shui qian cheng you are perfect). it also eased the suffocating feeling i have about sissy. f*ck shao qun still ugh blergh (he treated li shou terribly too not just chengxiu, li shou did not deserve that wish sth was done about that sqc seems to rly like shao qun tho or dislike li shou idk cause like did jinxin even care tsk anyways.) but also i can laugh at his face now.

shoutout to adrian that man is my girl <<less

truly s*um gong at its finest, so terrible it's perfect for me...... more>>

but i'm now on chapter 64, been shaking with fear for a few chapters now, hoping that surely not, SURELY NOT, the author would go this far but alas it seems like she will go so far!! i want to continue cause i rly liked this but i don't want to die...  my heart is so heavy i'll rly die.

after chapter 76: at some point it goes so far that the only thing that would fix it is for the mc to kill himself that would in turn make everyone else regret what they did and ruin their lives. a happy ending can be the bad ending, there are times when hurt no comfort is the way to go. this is the worst day of my life.

IN CONCLUSION DIE YUANLIJIANG DIE

rly finished, can't believe i did that. damn i did that. geez sooo much happened thought i was going to leave just traumatized but the author actually did seem to know what they were doing and actually managed to wrap things up i think. the second half was very taxing tho ughhghhghhhhhgrgg *a long sigh* be happy. <<less

sooo sad this is not me but good for them (booo) hope they are happy (i am so miserable like genuinely i am sooo sad rn :(( ) no but fr if they break up on a bad note i would kms... more>>

they are so young too there is sooo much to look forward to they would not look back and have a sinking feeling in their stomach for time and potential wasted

anyways this is really reaaally good i wish i could write like this

ETA: literally crying in the middle of the night at work cause it is not that i do not want this nor am i desperate for it it is just that at my age ik i have let go of countless of chances to experience sth sooo real and special (not specific to romance) because of fear and anxiety

not truly living

life... is pain... (not just upset cause of this light novel btw this is more of a wake up call rly which is a good thing and sth i always need... someday... this damage will be utilized...) <<less

this is too good!! buildup is builduping. ml's so good at flirting and mc's so dense they're perfect. i didn't like how mc fell hard... more>> first though and that they (esp the mc) say homophobic things from time to time. i understand it's to deflect. it's still wrong. that being said, i wanted to live in those tense moments forever!! and that first kiss was entrancing... :(( <<less

did they put drugs in this?? depressing but i need more like it. does not have to be as f*cked up though. :(( in fact, i would prefer something not as f*cked up. :(( yet still (very) f*cked up!!... more>>

until v8c3p1

ETA: why is this even here?? well, simon and jerome were interesting... until they weren't. tsk, it should be them three. i forgot to check for love triangles... i mean i wasn't expecting love at all period. all these tags i was cautious about and it's the love triangle that gets me... my achilles' heel... tired...

this is not the type i would reread. it does strongly remind me though that my life rly is not all that bad. and teddy, i still think about u... :(( next time, pursue someone u won't have to fix. u deserve better.

ETA: i saw spoilers i shouldn't have... ... only memory loss could fix me now... simon... it's time for me to go i can't be here anymore. <<less

somebody pls retranslate from chapter 12 :((

until chapter 4... more>>

how tf could anyone beat up a child jfc

until chapter 38

i got here again somehow though i realized that the beginning was indeed familiar and still reached chapter 38, some characters were irritating, the system was unbearable too why is this concept everywhere. i just want shen feixiao to finally discover who the unknown man really is, that's when the story will officially start. ugh.

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chapter 56!! chapter 56!! (i came back lol)

from chapter 56 onwards, this has become very pleasing to me. when i look for obsession, THIS IS WHAT I MEAN!! if every single move the ml makes isn't calculated in order to someday wholly monopolize the mc whether he likes it or not then that's not crazy enough for me!! ofc i'm scared of what's coming but it's the price i have to pay. (i kinda like that too as well? idk.) since if it's good writing, then a happy ending will not be part of the package 95% of the time. <<less

somebody pls translate the rest :((

i'm unsure if this should be here. the way this story pissed me off then pacified me, saddened me then made me laugh, made me... more>> want to stop reading then compelled me to continue, was annoying. it felt like a toxic relationship. also, the characters were inconsistent and made s*upid decisions. we could have avoided unnecessary struggles. i can't call it bad, tho. <<less