During her early childhood, she was forced to kill a puppy that she grew fond of. She refused to do so. Her father in turn ensured the puppy died a cruel death. Around chapter 50, she finds a resemblance between the og ML who depended on her and the puppy. She obviously did not want to feel get hurt again and thus she treated the og ML coldly. She knew the ML was deranged and she was targeted by people who wanted to use her alchemy, so she thought it was inevitable for the ones she was connected to to get hurt

She has little to zero common sense but thats due to the fact that she was not allowed to go outside, was treated like a circus clown at banquets, ab*sed, and had no one to really teach her things that weren't 'useful' for alchemy.

She knew the fate of the people under the Count and all the horrible things they've done. Although she tried to stop them when she was younger, she did not have the authority or power to do so. Years pass she becomes desensitized (which is normal because it literally was something that occurred daily in her house and she was also a victim). The only thing she had control over was her emotions so she guarded them. Locked them away would probably be more fitting. Im hoping she heals and open her heart again.

I specially cannot handle it whenever he mentions wanting the MC to be a complete doll that only had him. He wants her to be so broken down by everyone around them so that she can only turn to him. God I despise that so much. I am a sucker for possessive/obsessed ML but not this one.

The MC is a so called alchemist, but pretty recently we can see that the profession is essentially useless. She can’t do anything with it in the beginning, due to her father restricting her access to her equipment, because ancient magic circles should be reliant on equipment, and alchemy as a whole just fades away.

“The top alchemists are capable of creating magic healing potions capable of restoring limbs within hours.” (paraphrasing) Thats it. Thats all we really know, besides they can summon spirits, but I don’t remember whether thats directly linked to alchemy.

Anyway I digress. The first time I saw this phrase, my immediate thought was that this world was rather grounded in terms of how powerful one can be, after all while restoring limbs in hours is amazing, its not very... exciting? ML, of course, defies such... worldy things like expectations.

So later on, ML decides to slaughter some mages since they ticked him off, and then literally revives them instantly with a legendary spell that reverses time with no detriment to his own being. So... MCs ability is useless.

Mm, something else is that her father places a bracelet to restrict her, and her amazing alchemic powers can’t even do anything to try and tinker with it.

You would think alchemy would be related to items and things like transfiguration, but no.

Something else interesting is the absolute lack of a decent human being within the story. MC might count, but she doesn’t do anything at all, save to try and keep her conscience light.

Which brings me to my next problem. How is her mental state still ok? Her father starves her and hangs her by the foot. Her so called servants don’t respect her, and don’t obey her. ML is automatically void of being able to make her happy, at least for the first part of the novel, due to her fear of him.

Im pretty sure the sole reason her conscience is light is due to of all the people being slaughtered horrifically in the mansion, or in the entire story, none of them are decent people.

Well there is actually two entities who are decent... lifeforms? One being the Crown Prince, but she doesn’t bother to socialize with him.

So... forgive me for the blunt words, but why hasn't she attempted su*cide? She finds no joy in life, and she quite literally has nothing to live for. Hell, she hasn’t even tried to escape. She just looks at her bracelet and goes “Woops, nothing I can do.” She could’ve tried asking the Crown Prince, but I guess she hasn’t heard the saying “No risk no reward.” All she does is just wait for her inevitable demise, all the while hoping that treating a sociopathic lunatic better could somehow save her.

Then theres the wind elemental summon, “Jin, ” the other decent entity.

I lied again, as once she gets imprisoned within the magic tower, she decides its a good idea to try and escape.

Its repeated several times throughout the story that shes a smart lady. Like I mentioned before, she wants to keep a light conscience. So why does she not care about Jin?

After getting kidnapped and reduced to a knockoff Rapunzel in the tower of lunatics, she somehow thinks its a good idea to repeatedly summon her high rank spirit summon, as though it could possibly beat ML, who is basically a god rank in comparison to Jin?

Jin protests her actions, such as one time where she tries summoning him with a magic circle made of blood, which she magically learned how to do, saying that he refuses to be summoned through such a foul method, then MC summons him anyway.

Wouldn't you know, the special room in the Tower created by 12 archmages or whatever can’t even stop a summon. Then ML shows up, slams Jin against the wall, and starts licking her wound or whatever. I know saliva can help disinfect wounds or something, but thats gross. MC asks ML patiently to release Jin, which he does, and though my memories somewhat hazy, I believe Jin starts to berate MC, who proceeds to tune out his rant without any remorse for her actions which could’ve gotten him killed.

She also tries helping animals and whatnot that got injured somehow and grounded in her yard, knowing full well if her father catches her, he would kill them, ultimately leaving them worse off then before.

P.S., she somehow believes the ML (The one she called “completely fake”) when he tells her that the Crown Prince was going to use her as a cash cow, though I might be misremembering that.

she said she will no get attached to anybody because they will die anyway, so why even bother