The first half of the book was just full of heart-ache. The second half wasn't any better but, at least there's a lot of closure.

Hua Zhu Yu met three man in her life and the sad thing was all three man mistook other woman as her. So, you could just imagined the misunderstanding. They treated her badly and for once I just wanted the story to turn LGBTQ so that she could end up with Dan Hong, the only person who was loyal to her.

I gave it a four stars because the plot was nicely done even with some holes. I just couldn't grasped that a woman who entered the battlefield as a General and known as Asura could also be s*upid in the face of love. Hua Zhu Yu just couldn't let go. She wanted all three man to be happy before she herself could be happy in her plan to go wondering the world. The problem was, when the three man knew who she was to them, it was a tug-of-war game. We're talking about three Emperors here and not just some flower boys. And they're fighting for one woman. The same woman they treated like sh*t because they got duped by other woman. Could you imagine the scale of it. There's war, there's poison and there's backstabbing. And Hua Zhu Yu was in the middle of it all.

The novel was adapted into a drama but, there's no news yet on when it will be air. Form the trailer, it look real nice. I may watch it just for the sake of torturing myself once again.

I know that a lot will not like who she ends up with and I personally would have preferred that she ends up with XY but what can we do, the author chose to end that ship way too early T_T

There are probably a lot of things that I didn't like about how the author dealt with some events but the worst are:

--Seriously, what did XY do to you author, to cut him off that way after you made her spend so much time with him? Poor XY, first the author makes him fall for her hard, then he is to believe she is his sister, then he has to completely forget about her existence, and finally he abolishes his martial arts to remember her but when he regains his memories it is already too late for him to fight for her. This kind of second male lead is just too pitiful... I am not saying that XY's decisions are right but just look at it from his point of view and you'll understand many of his decisions. For example: when he sends her to the prostitute camp, she is a kind of "shame" to him since he is the crown prince of his dynasty but another empire fooled him into marrying someone that he has no interest in when he clearly chose someone else, at that time she has a really bad reputation, he also knows nothing about her side of the story and in his eyes the fact that the southern empire tried to kill her means that she is a pawn that was used to provoke his empire. So even if it was any other man, he wouldn't have sided with her nor treated her nicely and if he actually did that would be a miracle!

--Lan Bing, that **** should have been punished for the aphrodisiac WAY MORE than how he was punished, because the r*pe was entirely his fault. If you pay more attention to that scene you'll understand several things, I don't want to side with JFL but it was not his fault that our poor MC suffered that night. He had already fallen very hard for our MC by the time that night happens and he is the type who wouldn't want to betray his love in any way so the way he dealt with the "unknown women" that night can be understood. Of course understanding doesn't mean accepting!! In the 2nd version he is punished by JFL at the end, so I will reluctantly dismiss my dissatisfaction for this issue.

--I hate how the author disclosed to JFL that our MC was the "unknown women" he used that night to deal with his aphrodisiac, there should have been more to that, so I find that the author rushed that part. Seriously that was one of the most important things in this story but it was resolved like it was nothing. That I CAN'T accept!!! The author made our MC agonize because of that night and the loss of her child and made JFL agonize because he thought she loved someone else and lost someone else's child and when he finds out it was him the issue was brushed off as fast as it was mentioned. THAT is just irrational! The 2nd version is so much better since it deals with this point in a way that left me satisfied and happy about how the author disclosed this thing through that letter our MC left him in that sachet!

Anyway all in all even if I preferred XY, the hatred the author showed us between our MC and JFL was a bit too reliant on fake facts so there aren't many things that we can fault him with. The real sinner in this story is none other than her "father". When I found out about that I was like ????? All the things she suffered were either directly or indirectly caused by him. He certainly wins the award of Worst Dad Ever!!!

Her plan to investigate who and why her family was blamed for treason also failed many times. She was even led under other peoples scheme to believe on wrong person. Her reason to stay at the palace as eunuch becomes a joke as she slowly starts to really work for the prince like a s*ave. That really confused me, she as a dignified general worked like a maid. I can understand her reason at the beginning but later it felt like she doesn't have any purpose so she is ok working as eunuch. Even when she becomes pregnant she thinks she should leave the palace but she doesn't. She knew it was very dangerous inside the palace, her child was nearly poisoned to death but she insist on staying there and eventually this dumb decision of hers killed her child.