The heart wrenching thing for this story is, once you see his flashbacks and trauma memories, you suddenly realize the poor boy is just constantly getting hurt, whether it's trying to help people, or losing trust in those who he loved and trusted. His sister nearly kills him, his childhood friend who he had feelings for tried to make him jealous and ended up hurting him more, a girl who confessed to him yet screwed that up by saying she's only worried for him and is annoyed by him, and being called a mol*ster without even getting a defense and was nearly sent to prison and/or expelled from the school.

First of all, half the "traumas" this guy faces aren't particularly destructive events like all the characters in the novel seem to think. Sure, getting your confession broken sucks, but that generally doesn't send people off the deep end into suicidal thoughts or ignoring contact from all your friends (it can, for sure, but the MC didn't seem particularly mentally unstable to that point nor so deeply yandere for a crush in elementary school). Getting falsely accused for being a mol*ster sucks, but it was resolved literally 10 seconds later and the accuser apologized sincerely. That doesn't merit the accuser running all over the school or handing the MC a box of cond*ms and offering him her v-card because she's worried he'll commit su*cide from the depression of that 10-second tension. The MC's mother was busy with work as a single mother raising two kids, so she wasn't able to pay proper attention to him growing up. Yes, that sucks, but he had a reliable sister and it's hard to support two kids on a single person's salary. Does that mean the MC should ignore his mother at home or pretend his mother doesn't exist when she comes to the bring-your-parents-to-school day, or that his mother should try to sleep with him at night or enter the bath with him? IMHO, no?

Sure, some of the events do suck. The guy's middle school friend seems to have ruined his middle school basketball career because she wanted him to focus on her, not the club. The guy's sister pushed him off the jungle gym when they were in elementary school, because she was jealous. That cracked the kid's head open, and potentially gave him the mental disability I mentioned at the beginning? Otherwise, I can't really see how this guy flickers through emotions so quickly, sometimes suicidal, sometimes shouting at the top of his lungs about conspiracy theories, sometimes calling classmates "Elizabeth" without reason, sometimes ignoring them outright. However, the timeline doesn't really line up then, because the MC is also supposed to lose his emotional hinge at the end of elementary school when his first crush rejects him. I'm not trying to treat mental disability lightly, and my apologies if it came across as such - this is the best explanation I can figure out and I'm not sure if even the author really thought it through.

To give an example, the mother of the MC tries to sleep with him for neglecting him in past. As this many things that happen are unreasonable and unjustifiable.

His childhood friend literally strips herself naked to apologize to the MC. His sister kisses him (on the lips) and as do his mother and aunt so there's hints of in*est as well. There's an instance of the student council president wrongly accusing him and she offers her body to him. Just a whole load of nonsense.

I'm not sure how all these hard feelings are going to be resolved by the end, but I was surprised to see the protagonist taking some steps towards improvement himself after an honest confrontation with one of the girls. He seems to have internally acknowledged that his wild misconceptions might be him running away from a more complicated reality. I totally wasn't expecting his weirdness to get any kind of justification beyond the vague idea that he's 'closed himself off'. It was a pleasant surprise and I'm looking forward to what becomes of him in the future.

So, the main character decides to admit himself to a hospital. I think that's a brave step, very admirable of him to seek help without fear like that - I've got no issues there, if anything I was excited to see him finally set himself on the path of recovery. Unfortunately, the story takes a very unsatisfying turn. It is discovered that his aunt had subjected him to a psychological 'spell' that prohibits him from thinking normally, so he wouldn't kill himself. He visits his aunt and breaks the 'spell', and is now slowly recovering his emotions.

What an absolutely disappointing series of events and a very weak start to his recovery, what should be the most interesting part of the story. His apathy being a result of someone else's tampering rather than an honest response to what the girls have subjected him with cheapens it a lot for me.

What's more, interactions with the girls takes a turn for the worse after this. Their affection-aggression is inexplicably turned up to the max and every girl in his life incredibly blatantly wants what's in his pants (even his family). There was little to prompt this sudden switch besides internal change from the main character, which should have no bearing on the outside world, right? Even girls who have had exchanges with the main character in the single digits are suddenly openly requesting s*x. I don't have a problem with this kind of story, but the shift here has been far to abrupt and utterly unearned. I'm still curious to see where this goes, but it has suffered from a bit of thoughtlessness, in my opinion.

Yukito is a strange person. That should be obvious considering how this novel starts. And I'm not talking about the prologue. Anyway, he seems unable to deal with those around him and is unstable mentally. The reason for that is how much he suffered at the hands of the opposite s*x. For all ends and purposes, he is a good person. But that is where the problem comes from. By always putting others in front of him, he ends up misunderstanding people sometimes. And as someone socially inept, to say the least, things get worse and worse, overall. Take the oldest situation we know about his childhood: he always thought that he was adopted. The problem was that he told this to his mother. And to make matters worse, he did not receive a negative, as his mother started to cry over that, he just let the matter go and taken as a taboo theme. But what was his reason, you should be asking? Simple, as both his mother and sister are such amazing beautiful, and competent people, he was nothing near that and could only be found below a bridge by his mother. That is to show how much of a good person he is, but always aggrandizes the people around him, and how he sees himself as a blight in their lives. Being the one that hurts them, worse yet, not even knowing why they were hurt. Because he can't perceive how people care for him. This should show how he is unable to talk things over with people. And I'm not sure of the reason for that. Throughout the novel, we end up learning that someone hypnotized him to make him able to protect his heart from all this pain. Thing is, besides this being a very dumb plot point, we aren't sure if this was the reason for all the problems. The idea was that this would help him evade su*cide, but to me, it was just a dumb plot point added for some unknown reason.

I told you Yukito is broken, but I did not explain how. He is broken in the complete human sense. Let me explain why I say so. He has no family to help him out; His mother and sister have done and talk things that ended up leaving in him the impression that he is a chore, partly because he is dumb and takes everything at face value, but other because they did not notice how delicate his mind was. Sister did worse, but the mother is a problem too. Now imagine someone with no family to retreat into. This should show how much of a problem this could be. Then the next is school; He was used as an example by a teacher who thought she was doing the best and a trainee who didn't know best and was going with the flow. Add to that the fact that his class turned his back against him and attacked him, should show the problem. Then he had no family and no social place to mingle. But at least he had a childhood friend... Then he was betrayed by a beloved one; Mind you, he was partly wrong here, as I will talk about it later, but what you should get from here is that the one he loved told him that she wanted to go out with another dude. His only solace after losing family and friends, the loved one ended up showing signs that he interpreted as negative and left him behind. Now what? He lost a hobby; When you do not have much on the social side, is usual to go try a hobby. He started playing basketball. He started because of a broken heart, but his focus and dedication were enough to help him put his head in order. But he ended up being injured before an important game and the whole team got mad at him. So he lost family, friends, loved ones, and his hobby. The dude starts the story having nothing that confirms his existence. At least that is how he sees things. After so many losses and getting broken, that should be expected. Not that he has zero hand in this, at points. But this explains how much of a broken person he is at the start of the novel.

Anyway, now we need to talk about each of the major troublemakers in this novel. The ones that pushed him into the current situation.

Starting from the first, mother.

She was a working single mom for most of the time. And her separation from her ex-husband was so long ago that Yukito does not even recognize his father. Now, she has done the classic problem in those cases, neglecting her child. At times I've got the impression that Yukito's problem was rotted there, in his stunned relationship with his mother, and that he had no masculine figure to guide him. But we will never know, because this novel has what I would call a problem of over sexualizing everything all the time. And I used it here, when talking about his mother, because she too is one of the women who is a step before just outright rapping Yukito. And that is another problem of the novel, trying to overcompensate the error in the worst possible way. Now, consider that you neglected your child and when he was in a tense situation did not believe him or at least try to talk things over calmly enough. And what came from that was that he closed himself to you. Fine, things are not easy and people are bound to make mistakes. And yes, some things are not mendable. But what did she decide to do? Try and assault him over her guilt, always using her body as a bargaining chip to try and bait him. There is this idea that a broken vase can be mended but will always carry its cracks forever. And that should be the focus here. More than that, they should own their mistakes and try to at least talk it out normally with him. Focus on the normal there. But what I take from it is that they are so desperate to help him that they act like so. What ends up coming out, to me, is egocentric and nonsensical. Not to say that it makes zero sense, but I have the impression that it would not help in such situations, obviously. To the point that even Yukito noticed how the people around him seemed to be eager to do something, but it was more because of the pain and guilt they felt because of him. What ends up being a cyclical motif here, they hurt him, now feel guilt over it, and force themselves to stay around to relieve the guilt and try and help him. Only that they don't choose the best possible thing, most of the time.

Now, this second half should come at the end of my rambling, but it seemed perfect to be added there, considering how much his mother is unable to understand how to help him. By both sides being unable to talk things out normally, we end up forced to see what can only be called a repetition. Worsened by how she decides to use her body to contact him. And get happy when told that he is starting to see her as a woman, more than a mother.

But let me go to the next one, that is a problem too. The sister.

She is one of the worse, in the sense of the hurt she put him through. And by how she acts. What did she do? She threw him out one of those climbing toys that exist in parks while saying that she hated him and never wanted to see him again. What did he do? Took it as gospel and stayed lost for almost a week. Now, at the time she was young. Probably around 10 years of age, most. And kids tend to act without thinking. She only noticed how bad it was when she saw his bloodied inert body on the ground. I'm giving the sis some defense here, but that should be because she was a child and Yukito is unable to understand people. Especially hyperboles. But she is one of the worst with him now. She basically kisses him in the mouth most of the time and rubs her body all over him. Now, I get it, she acted without thinking at a young age has scared her brother forever, and is the one that is most responsible for making him basically a socially inept person now (with his mother). But to use this as an excuse for how she is almost forcing him to sleep with her and all that... How about no? Now, this situation could be pinned on the mother too, that forced a child to take care of the other. But who would've thought this would happen? And now we are forced to follow the daily antics she does with him that seem to only worsen his psyche.

Aunt.

She is the one who hypnotized him. Dumb plot point, and a worse character. She is basically there to insinuate her body to him. She is the one who noticed how broken he was after the whole missing child thing and acted as she could to try and save him and his psyche. But... Well, let us say that she is there to flaunt her b**bs and invite him over to bath and s*x.

Next, a childhood friend.

This is complex too. But, by herself, she is the only one who hurt him and came out as normal (est) of them. At least she talked it over with him eventually and there was no forced nakedness, bath time, and whatever the other did. What did she do? She told him that she would start dating some random senpai out of nowhere. Her plan? Make him jealous and force him to ask her over. What happened? He took that at face value and said he loved her, but now knew she did not like him that way and was only accepting his antics because she was forced by the label of a childhood friend. This was corroborated by one time when she took her hand always when he tried to hold it and that she seemed to be unwell around him at times. Why she did do so? She was ashamed that her hand was sweaty. Did she do wrong? Yes. Sure. Was that the right thing that he did? Not really. When he is info dumping her, you see that she is trying to salvage things, but as he is inept with people, we end with everything ending like that and that's it. That's why I put more of the blame on him (actually, the ones that forced him to be that closed off) than on her. Maybe making someone jealous is a bad move, but how he acted was totally unexpected and dumb. Throwing out the whole relationship without giving her the time to talk it out with you just serves to show us how socially stunted he is. And she is hated by everyone because of that. Well, at least Yukito's sis and her own family. Worse, the would-be boyfriend is an arsewhole and when she did not give him attention told everyone that they've done the deed. And her sister doubt her and thought that she was a whore. That's why I would say she got the worst end, and maybe undeservingly so.

Next, women's basketball friend.

This one loved him and was caught by him saying to her friends that she did not like him for real and was only staying around because she was preoccupied with him. That after confessing her love for him. What he took from it? He was a chore, as always. Holding back someone amazingly great with his uselessness. She is bad. Yes. Done shit. Yup. Her friends told her to go after him and come clean, but she did not do and it only forced him to take it as gospel, again. And when she finally took the courage to talk it out, she ended up slipping and injuring him. Making matters worse, as usual in the novel, he broke his wrist days before an important game. What made him be talked off by the whole team, which was completely dependent on him. A sh*t show, sh*t show everywhere.

And with that, I covered most of his problems. But this would not end. And I have more women to talk about. I will try to make it smaller...

Now we have two senpais from the student presidency.

He was going to help one of them who was being mol*sted and the other thought he was the chikan. And they did not take the time to hear him out, already talking about how he was the worst. Only when a woman who saw everything comes out to help that things get better. And only when he said that he should know that helping people was wrong that the two noticed the sh*t they do. Now, fine, we have another bad situation with women and he is forced to take the brunt of it. But to make the whole thing worse, the president is forcing him to have s*x with her to make up for her mistake. Why? Because f*ck you, that is why. And there is something about her and the time he stayed missing too, but we got nothing out of it (yet). The other is just useless and feels bad, like all others. Ah, and her stepfather is the real father of Yukito, that's it. Useless. (And this whole situation added another person who tried to expulse him from the school because she thought he was abusing the president. Meaning president is one of the worst characters here.)

Angry teacher and neighbor lady.

Both were his teacher in middle school and accused him of stealing something. Worse, did it in front of the class when he told them it wasn't his fault. Spoilers, it wasn't. And this made the whole class accuse him of being a thief and things get so out of hand that he end up kicking the ass of some people in front of the whole class after being bullied and attacked. After he finally proves his innocence and shows that not even one of them took his side (his mother too, mind you), he ends up ignoring his whole class and teachers. Deservingly so. Neighbor lady decided to quit teaching and the other one was in a downward spiral. The class was never the same and died inside, the real culprit was forced to quit that school. All because one teacher thought she was the one who was right and needed to hold justice. Now one of them is his teacher and the other ends up being his neighbor. But he doesn't know or remember them because they were considered his enemy, making him delete them all from his memory. Yup, he was right, and the chapters about that time were one of the best overall. And neighbor is another one that is throwing herself to him. As usual.

And this is the brunt of the women in his life. At least the ones that appear more. Now there are 3 more that deserve to be talked about but are not that important or involved in the whole thing. One ran over him with her bicycle and is a college gal. Seems fine, considering the other ones. Another is the one who helped him on the train (he gave his place for her to sit before trying to save the other), another college girl who is one of the only 2 girls who did nothing wrong.

The last one is Goddess Senpai. She seems to be the other one who did nothing wrong to him and treated him fine. She has an aunt that thought that Yukito r*ped her and took a video. But this has nothing to do with her, so f*ck the dumb drunk demon vomiting on the other's face Aunt/old woman. There is something about her that seemed to be important in the Light novel side, but I don't know, yet.

What is important here is that most of the women seemed to make matters worse, as I said before. Sure they should not let him stay sicky and broken alone. But what they do and how they do can only be called a wrong move. Most of them don't sit and talk things out with the dude. How in the f*ck would they expect him to get better doing so? The dude sees himself as something that only causes pain and gets in their way. In the place of talking it out, as he is unable to comprehend, they decided to sexually assault him...

This dude is a chick magnet, but, to compensate for that, his luck with situations and women is the worst possible. Always breaking him and his mind.

I would like it if someone, like his best friend (male), came around and helped him out. There was an older dude before, but he disappeared and all else too (for the most part), to make way for his sexually depraved family and neighbor, most of the time. What a sad thing...

To end this long thing. There is some hidden stuff important to talk about. The childhood friend's mother asked him to do something about the bad boyfriend, but we still don't know what, just that the ex is scared of something. What happened to him (Yukito) while missing seems to be very important, but why and what happened is still unknown.

What I would say is that I know that people say that he should not be left alone, considering how he was at the beginning. But the ones around him, for the most part, are not the ones that should be helping him. That much should be obvious. I would say that the best way things would get better was if he just went away. Change city and try to start over at a new place. There are bound to be better people there. But with his luck...

Now this people had reasons for why they did this, it's fine to hate them for what they did, but do keep in mind that they heavily regret what happened and are actively and strongly trying to redeem themselves and make it up to him (these ones are the ones I have seen as far as translation has gotten, I will update it if something else appears)

· His mother pretty much abandoned her motherly duties, due to her huge focus with work and didn't try to meaningfully connect with him in his earlier years

-Denied him of parental love and made him start to create a cognition of himself where he was mostly a bother

· His sister got stuck with caring for him, due to their mothers' fault, so while being very young got really fed up with it and lashed out at him in a park where she told him that she hated him and to disappear

-Destroyed his familial trust, and made the cognition from earlier take a real form

· His childhood friend, one of the few reasons he wasn't fully mentally and emotionally dead for a while, tried to pressure him into saying something by pretending to have boyfriend, which he didn't take well at all, basically breaking their relationship

-Basically the finishing blow to his emotional health, denying him of the few emotions that he still had and finalized his cognition of how other people not only actively disregard him but found him to be unbearable or a pain to deal with

· In elementary school, he was framed for having stolen something from an intern working there, where his classmates proceeded to bully him due to a mistake by the teachers, which also wronged him as they didn't listen to his explanation and decided that he was wrong and that was it

-Destroyed the trust he had for his peers and his superiors, in this case teachers, and made it so he actively avoided interactions with others

· In middle school, he was a member of the basketball team, the manager of the club, which was aiming for the MC and told him, told some of her friends how she disliked him and couldn't stand him due to her embarrassment and by an accident made it so he couldn't play the finals

-Destroyed his yearning for goals and aspirations, and the finals where a place which he thought would be enough for him to get closure with what happened with his childhood friend, basically denying him closure on that