I liked this novel a lot and there were many parts that had me whipping a few tear. In my opinion it was really well written and the author mad a point not no make any details unnecessary. Everything has meaning and the whole story comes full circle.

For the negative reviews: I’ll say that if you have not read the full story please don’t leave a review for this one because it really is one where you have to read it all to understand the characters.

Also for people who don’t... more>> like r*pe in novels. Please just say that. It’s def something that I try to filter out of my searches but I’ve just come to terms with it being a large part of the yaoi genre. For me personally it doesn’t break a story for me because I know it’s fiction, but if it’s a deal breaker for you just read the tags and move to a different novel. <<less

My favourite danmei novel to this day. I honestly don't have the words to describe it. I can't even recommend it to my friends because I love it so much I want to gatekeep it from them lolol.

10/10

I think I read this at the wrong time. This story is rlly good but I think rn I need something with that is not as heavy.

I regret it but I can’t keep my hands away from spoilers :/

The story is so long and I can’t read something like that rn. I think I will take a break and come back. I need some more fluff and romance atm. I lose interest super fast after the romance is accomplished enough and the story wasn’t far enough at that point to... more>> catch me so I will put this on hold. <<less

great so far I love angst and I live for angst

ik some of the spoilers, bc I need spoilers in order to finish a novel, but not enough to know the entire plot. anyways they will not deter me from finishing this. one day. um maybe the fact that there are only 120 chapters translated may stop me, however, I can always stoop as low to reading with mtl or spending a few months agonisingly reading this in chinese...

at least book 4 will be released and then I can rely... more>> on my trusty old friend to download the epub :) and then I only have to figure out a solution for 160~ chapters <<less

ahha the first ever novel I read fully (3/20 to 5/20)

my gr review:

i bet it would be 5 stars if I wasn't forced to suffer through an mtl (I'm still very grateful for the edited mtl I can't imagine reading unedited)

at first my thoughts were ohh cw is so perfect why mr is

too dog

but after all the plot twists and chapters and everything I now understand

mr has suffered a lot and is seemingly also perfect in ways. Like how he sacrificed himself for cw like that. anyways I hope I can read this again when 7 seas finishes in like 10 years lmao.

cwn and mr and xm have my heart. Meatbun likes to make everyone suffer without exception. I love xue meng. Wish there was only one mei hanxue. Jiang xi thing was lowk random af. A lot of things were. But I still liked it. Anyways I wouldn't recommend this to anyone tbh. Unless they're as crazy as me. Be otherwise I think. There are too many insane things

that review is very lacking in detail bc I posted it on gr of all places.

honestly I still love cw and mr and how they love e/o. I feel bad for everyone. I used to think of them to help me sleep don't ask why LOL idk why but it worked sometimes ummm very entertaining. A good read! Tho I had to download 5 different files lol each one is fully annotated.

Ahhh very good novel that left me with strong impressions. However, there were two big issues I had with the plot. Actually three but I'll not state the third since it might be caused by the MTL translation. Yes, the novel was that good that I was desperate enough to MTL to finish it off.

The two big logic issues

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- Chu Wanning went back in time to warn about the future. He had no one to trust so he went to his estranged master for help. Ummm, why didn't he go to his past self?

- After Chu Wanning was kidnapped, Mo Ran allowed himself to be captured and punished by the "righteous" mob. According to Mo Ran's character, he's crazy in love with Wanning, would he peacefully allow himself to be imprisoned when Wanning's safety is unknown?

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Without these issues the rating would be 4 stars. 5 stars if the ending didn't feel as rushed. <<less

This is an amazing book, with a good plot and many mature themes and topics.

I heard very much about this book and was having some expectations. In the end, it was not at all that I’ve expected, but still very very nice in its own way. You can see how I love this book just from the reading time - it took me only a week to finish everything including all extras. This is really very quick for such an amount.

I’m very very happy with the plot. I really liked... more>> how it went and plot twists. It was very enjoyable. Yes, I’ve guessed some points but that’s not an issue. I’m quite proud that I’ve guessed the main boss as soon as the 1st book ended.

Plot is complicated, and I feel like there is some points that might’ve been more clear, but that’s fine. Not a big issue.

I like the main couple, though this is not my favorite coupe. I hated the MC for half of the book, but then it began to get better and better. Especially in the end, it reminded me of SVSSS ML. But that’s not bad.

I love Shizun and he is my dear baby though the whole book.

Their relationship are complicated. In the end, I’m glad they found their place in world with the happy ever after. Those guys really deserved it.

The chemistry is soooooooo good all the way. And it was very hot in many moments. Like it.

About angst and warnings. Maybe it was only me, but I’ve expected to cry out a river and... it didn’t happen. It had got some tears from my only at the ending of main story.

But, yes, there are many mature and dark themes. Many things that are showing you how ugly this world and those people are.

I had a full specter or emotions while reading this novel. Pain, anger, hate, sympathy etc. it’s enjoyable and a bit tiring emotionally. Be aware.

I like how it all ended, and happy for the main couple. Recommend you to give it a go, after getting to know warning and triggers. <<less

First part: makes you very sad. Huge number of misunderstandings of first life.

second part: make you sad, happy, and world expansion. Got together. Guilt. Origins and history revealed.

third part: still makes you sad just not as much as the 1st part. True villain. Bunch of drama. Happy ending.

... more>> loved bc it has a way to hit you with sadness. Glad they got together. Not entirely sure if MC repented enough but at least they have healthy relationship at the end and shizen happy.

miss the mini theatre. Mlted from chapter 165 - end.

End: not entirely sure who to hate but good book. <<less

Okay fu*k here we go. First 11 chapter are struggle for me to read, no, more like book 1 are struggle to read. Basically, you don't like MC (mo ran) at first, he's look like an idiot, sadist, obsessive fool.

And the main relationship obviously unhealty at first, And Male lead (Chu wanning are looks cold and unfeeling at first, but he's such a good person and a softie..... basically repressed tsundere cat.).... but then you felt pity to ML aaaaaaa and then you think MC undeserved for ML he's too... more>> good for Mo ran (but of course, Chu wanning is not perfect but he's good and that what it's count). If the author didn't warn me the real ship, I might jump into the wrong ship. (Still made me read it tho- like, I'm very curious) But if you endure and read book 2.... it'll be worth it really. And book 3... man, such a ride.

Basically, there's 3 upgraded version of MC (Mo ran) every upgrade, he became more okay.. so. Mo Ran 0.5: is an sadist, psycho, DO NOT APPROACH ANY COST. (... after reading the books I have mixed feeling about this ver he's just-) Mo Ran ver 1.0: is an idiot f*cking idiot that I wanted smack his head with pan. Mo ran 2.0 : Finally we got the best upgrade ever. It's about change about atonement it's a process, the process is not instant.... very cool. And about the book.

Book 1: You need a mountain of patience. I'm serious. Watch me rolls my eyes at Mo ran inner monologue in background. Book 2: ROMANCE... and groveling that we need after reading book1..... and s*xual tension brrrr Book 3: f*ckING Roller coaster, a lot happened plot become really interesting. Many mystery revealed here. Basically, endure at book 1, and you know that meatbun is really really good at plot twist, the relationship become from unhealty to healthy, and this is a good books...... and also full of knive (much hardcore than MDZS) and explicit scene (and r*pe, which...I kind of skipped hahaha) but it's worth it.

Also, me at first: eh, this pair is not that impressive. I don't think they're THAT Compatible Me, after reading this books: holy shit, I was wrong. This pair is REALLY complicated at first... but then you know, their love is... sniff very touching. Ranwan is my fave now. THEY'RE PERFECT FOR EACH OTHER!!!! I'm serious, their emotional connections are deep, it's hard for me now to find another like this QAQ Also, people are horrible, this Is why I prefer to stay at home.

ok so, my personal favorite will be Xue Meng, The best chara development goes to Mo Ran, the most chara with morals/ justice/hero are Chu wanning (his mental strength is also pretty tough, but his self-esteem... QAQ), the most mysterious character goes to shi mei! (To me) also, there Is no real villain here, every (main chara) has reason and tragic past so... you'll maybe dislike some chara or even didn't agree on their action but I never truly HATE some chara here... warning: dark content, r*pe (non con or dub con whatever it is) it'll made you cry, ps: if you want more theres awesome fic that was continuation after sh*t happens, there's an AWESOME one in Ao3 (warning: it's rate E, so if you're not into that... eh.) <<less

Great story loved reading it. Real tear jerker, If you know you know. Can't wait for the show to be released, if ever in this life time.

But I'm confused some of the comments are saying that they were disappointed with the end but the translation isn't complete yet.

This is one of the best novels ever !!! I've invested a lot in this !! The story, character development, world-building all of the is perfect !! It's a must-read I would say... I laughed, cried literally felt so close with all the characters !!

It was a huge emotional rollercoaster.. I literally had so many anxiety attacks !! So many plot twists and turns !! I'm eagerly waiting for the drama

This story has ANGST!! There were many times I was frustrated and then happy and then frustrated again. There were many twists I wasn’t expecting but they were good twists in a sense that they kept the story engaging and didn’t fall flat.

With the MC there were many times I wanted to slap the sh*t out of him and then there was the ML I wanted to cuddle and protect.

I honestly have a love no not even love just a like/hate relationship even when I finished the story it’s still... more>> like this. I understand second chances but I just can’t forget I really can’t. But with the ML I love him to death!! He is just so 🥺🥺🥺. Like that’s literally it that emoji. It’s like he knows when to be strong with people and strong with the MC but he like also weakens himself to the MC which is frustrating but once I continue to read I also understand him.

There is a lot going on in this story that keeps you engaged so highly recommend it. Enjoy the frustration and angst but also eventual fluff too lovelies!!! <<less

This is pain. Complete and utter pain. Just when you think things aren't gonna get any worse, it does.

But it's so beautiful, the original author has a way with words that just have the capability to take your heart out crushing into a bloody mess, you want them to stop but at the same time, you don't. Because everything about this book is so tragically well-written, and the translators did such a WONDERFUL AND AMAZING JOB.

The translators deserve everything for the amazing work that they've done, a lot of previous... more>> light novels I've read just had that awkward way of being translated, that once you've read it you'd immediately think that it was translated, it lost all sorts of flow, mechanical and forced, almost.

But this one was different, the translators managed to capture the emotions and flow of words just right, so when the very emotional scenes came, you couldn't help but cry with the characters. Thank you so much translators for the quality work you guys always give. <<less

Overall I enjoyed it I GUESS there's plot twists I could handle while others kinda seemed the author was reaching. I would still recommend reading :P I enjoyed some of the connections made and Mo Ran going through the clearing of the misunderstandings were beautifully portrayed~ Wish Wanning wasn't so degraded throughout though T^T Made me uncomfy~

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literally once mount jiao (?) hit I was OVER IT like Wanning is a stick? Okay cool but then shi mei and the split personalities asdgh To be fair, the xue meng blind date extras made it less worse~

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wow, this novel has honestly been such a ride. first off, to anyone who wants to read this novel please give it a try ugh the feels. I was a lil skeptical and honestly hated the MC sm but everything changed by the third book and now im a full time simp for him. Also, I love shizun so so so much!! The only reason I continued reading was for him. Things were unbearably slow till the 97th chapter but after that its just painful, also the side characters are... more>> so so wonderfully potrayed and you can understand the motives for each of their actions. Also, to add one I love the fact that the MC is not your regular neighbourhood vigalante, he has done some messed up sh*t and understandably so as well, although I cant say that all he did was justified, but hes a grey character in true sense...

Also, I love the element of redemption in the story. Although, its a lil graphic here and there I understand a lot of people myself included would be uncomfortable w that but the rest of it is gorg.

Overall, if you like all this, you should definetly give it a shot, things are unbearably slow but I promise itll escalated very and I mean VERY quickly.

happy reading!! <<less

tbh I'm just obssesed with this novel but the traslation aren't finished yet and I'm aughhhhhh dying waiting, I don't like others traslations so I'm gonna be patient and wait.

about the book so far, yes some things are disgusting and some chapters I didn't even read them bc of mo ran 0.5 u know, but I still feel pity for him ugh everything is too much. I want to say to those ppl who give 1 rate but didn't finish the book or at least more than 100ch that pls... more>> give it a second chance, maybe I will change my mind if I keep reading but for now I like it a lot.

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Personally, I really liked reading this novel and I highly recommend it. Here are a list of reasons of mine.

1. The plot line isn’t boring, there are a lot of interesting events that can keep you waiting for more. It focuses on emotions, the trauma from the past, the twists and changes of fate due to the protagonist’s rebirth, etc, and it doesn’t only talk about the romance between the bl couple. I won’t spoil anything, but I promise this isn’t your regular cultivation setting bl novel.

2. The emotional scenes... more>> are absolutely amazing. It captures the painful feeling of the protagonist slowly realizing his love after many years (technically in the novel he used 2 lives) towards his shizun who is now directly in front of him, so close yet so distant, as he promised himself to cherish and love that person and not tainting him, but with passionate dirty thoughts running through his mind. For the shizun, Chu Wanning, it’s actually even sadder in my opinion. In both of the protagonist’s lives, he had secretly liked Mo Ran (aka the protagonist), but because he was the shizun and the protagonist was his disciple, he had to hide his true feelings through a cold and haughty mask, forcing himself to endure years of pain and loneliness even before knowing Mo Ran (he has always been alone, and because of this he slowly developed a cold and harsh demeanor, but inside he’s a kind and warmhearted person and often helps others without letting them know), and because of his attitude, in the protagonist’s first life he misunderstood that his shizun always hated him, even though he was actually the one who cares about him the most. Thankfully, in his second life he realized that his shizun was very caring, and finally after more than 100 chapters he realized he has loved Chu Wanning all along. HOWEVER, in these more than 100 chapters, Chu Wanning didn’t know Mo Ran finally realized he loved him, in fact, Chu Wanning thought that Mo ran liked someone else (Shi Mingjing aka Shi Mei), and no matter what small act of kidness Mo Ran did for him (even obliviously and not realizing how painful it is for his shizun) he put on a harsh attitude, but in truth he’s very touched and always thinks about how these small interactions are enough for him.

3. The characters’ personalities are very interesting. For example, take a look at the protagonist Mo Ran. In most stories, the main character is usually the good guy who fights for justice, however in this novel Mo Ran was actually the bad guy in his past life and he sinned deeply and killed a lot of people. This is really rare, and also it’s interesting to see in Mo Ran’s second life, he often blames himself for his past mistakes and can’t forgive himself, but he did a lot of good deeds and wanted to turn over leaf in the second life, but even after all the good things he done, he still can’t get over the trauma from his last life (I’m currently at chapter 150).

Overall, I feel like this novel is definitely worth reading. If you’re looking for a bl novel that has characters with depth and angsty moments enough to make you cry, this is a great book for you. <<less

It was really a roller coaster ride but I liked the novel a lot. I might reread it after the complete translation. The extras were really funny... helps you get through the depression of finally finishing the novel and also all the crying you did beforehand.

I don't even know where to start first of all this book has been in my reading list for more than 6 months because most of the reviews are like so angsty depressing and now I finished reading it n I have to admit those reviews are true but worth it. This story portrays beautiful n bitter sweet love story between mo ran n wanning at first I hated mo ran so much but in the middle I cried because of how much he suffered I think his suffering is... more>> more than wanning they both deserve happiness n love and I love all those side characters except shi mei ofc atlast I love those extras it is funny overall rollercoaster ride❤️❤️❤️❤️ <<less

5.0/5.0 Stars

(I just want to preface this short review by saying the trigger warnings included at the beginning of every chapter are 100% accurate and I'm so glad they are included. Please look at the triggers listed at the beginning of the translation and see if you're uncomfortable with anything. This novel doesn't shy away from a lot of heavy topics.)

I'm currently not finished with this novel. I read ahead with the MTL, but the current translation is worth waiting for.

Now, would I recommend this novel? As of... more>> where I am in the novel, absolutely. I don't readily give out five stars, but with the current impression this novel has left on me it warrants that rating. Mo Ran and Chu Wanning are both fantastic characters and you'll end up loving both of them. There are also some really great side-characters with our precocious bird Xue Meng and White Lotus Shi Mei.

But even with the five stars, there are still a few flaws that I've noticed. One of my current gripes is the pacing issues. Some parts of the novel have dragged far too long for my liking. I'm also not too engaged with the current direction of the plot. Again, I'm not finished with the novel to conclusively express any true grievances with plot. More than likely, the plot will expand or throw something unexpected so heed this part of my review with that in mind.

If you are willing to give this novel a try--then you should prepare yourself a blanket and a box of tissues. And maybe a stuffed animal to cuddle for added measure. This novel is a painful ride but it's absolutely worth going through.

(I also want to mention here that Chu Wanning is the bestest boi. I love him so much. Prepare to love this man with your entire soul.) <<less