But I think he is one of the most real. He was controlled by chess fraction plus he had a demon flower that's been planted in his body for over 8 years, so what do you expect??? do you expect him to suddenly break free and instantly destroy all the villain??? lolololol.

I mean if he could really get out of control and come to his senses just because of "His great love for Chu Wanning..." then this story is just same like another ordinary BL.

At the beginning of the story you will be told that there are rumors that Xue Zheng Yong loves Lady Wang very much, while Lady Wang herself does not really love her.

But trust me the problem it's not that simple.

Well in the end, I think Lady Wang is really loves Xue Zheng Yong, it's just that her love is not passionate love or lustful love. But a mature love where there are no need many words, It's just like "Knowing that I'm always by your side is enough."

There is many people confused, How Shi Mei and Hua Binan which is same person have different thoughts.

Well the answer is lies in the experience that they have.

Hua Binan has committed countless crimes, at first it was just a small thing, but from that little thing he grew more and more numb that he didn't even care if it cost the entire world... You could say he had already no way to go back.

While for Shi Mei, although he also committed many crimes, he had not done anything that truly extraordinary, the things he did were mostly still the basis of what Hua Bainan did.

The environmental conditions of the two of them were also different due to Mo Ran's rebirth, which made him have a more stronger bond with Shizun, Xue Meng and Moran himself.

This why when he finally found out how many lives that he need for the final plan, he chose to back down and gave up.

This all because he had not formed a trait like Hua Binan yet. It was also because he was still at the beginning when he knew how terrible he would be in the future, that why he finally chose to stop and ended up betraying himself and considers his eyes as payment for his betrayal.

It's so sad that even after two worlds she and Nangong Si still couldn't be brought together.

As some viewers have said, him being r*ped and tortured shouldn't have been the reason the author have for us to sympathize with him. I really feel as though they went overboard. And not because I'm faint hearted about that kind of stuff, but because it felt less like me sympathizing and more like I was watching pain for the sake of pain. It took me out of the moment and I was left wondering why we couldn't just get attached to the ML normally?

The ending with the merging of the him of the past and the changed him s**ked ass. I feel like it devalued everything the ML went through with the r*pe and the torture. It felt like a perpetrator of ab*se finally managed to mend his ways only to end up right back where he started. Very very frustrating.

"He had not yet killed his uncle and aunt, not yet razed seventy two cities to the ground, not yet betrayed his teacher and ancestors"

"Mo Ran was filthy. Shi Mei was too gentle and pure. He wasn’t worthy of someone like Shi Mei." yeah the pure white lotus you dont dare to dirty that ends up been a villain who hates you

"Mo Ran glanced at him from a distance. Although he thought he had prepared himself, when he saw this man appear in front of him alive and healthy again, it made him tremble down to his smallest bones.

Half fear, half... excitement. His Shizun. Chu Wanning." he is exited not because he is happy, he is exited because at this very moment we are seen a r*pist see his victim again, you do the math as to why an ab*ser will be "exited" to see the victim he has r*ped, ab*sed, humiliated, tortured, and broken beyond repair in his last life

"What he had been thinking really was looking for a way to f*ck Chu Wanning to death. " more like r*pe him again in this second life, this is not "cute" not the death part is a euphemism given how he did break and killed ML in his last life, now that his broken toy is back as new he wants to break it again, this is no her/anti hero, this is a s*umbag

"Hehe, if Chu Wanning could know what happened in his previous life, he would know - in the end, Mo Weiyu was the only one deserving of respect in the world. No matter how noble and arrogant Chu Waning was, he was still a piece of mud under his boot. Didn’t he depend on Mo Ran’s good will to survive?" again you can see him planning to break ML and how lowly he considers him, also guess who made ML be so dependent of this sh*t, since we are in the spoiler part, this bastard had ML dancing and breaking for so long because ML suffering and begging was the only thing keeping this bastard cousin and the surviving cultivators alive.

Also the freacking r*pe scenes, why just why, if the author wanted us to even try to like MC why give us such horrible explicit scenes were is obvious that ML is UNWILLING and feels humiliated on top of it, he even BEGS MC to just kill him and stop humiliating him like that, and in the second life MC STILL thinks of of ML as his toy, and the only reason he change his plan of doing it all over again its because he discover that ML had always been his greatest benefactor/protector/loving person toward him, he does not feel shame or remorse for what he did and only start to change after he discovers how wrong he was. The fact that author tries to say that moran is just a moron that does not understand his own heat and that he was evil because of a curse is a sh*tty explanation and the only way out he had to make it "palatable" all that was done, and why did he had to make ML blame himself for what Moron did????. CWN is the most undeserving of everything that happened to him.

It felt like once we find out what led Mo Ran to become Taxian-Jun, Chu Wanning has no choice but to forgive him. Suddenly nothing is Mo Ran's fault actually, and he has nothing to apologize or atone for, and Chu Wanning just has to be like, "Oh okay, well I guess I can't be mad about all those years of violent r*pe and torture and mu*der then." It felt like a cop-out, and it felt cheap. Mo Ran still did all those things, regardless of why, and Chu Wanning just was no longer allowed to feel anything other than guilt about it. It took away the last dregs of Chu Wanning's agency and I hated it.

For the majority of the first half of the book, one get's to enjoy all the complex interactions of the MC and the ML. MC slowly but steadily starts to realise that maybe ML is not so bad after all. We see the MC start to grow a bit, his past slowly catching up to him and filling him with guilt. But growth is good. He eventually seems determined not to be the crazy person that he was in his other life so all is good... right? NOPE.

After MC starts to care about the ML, while knowing how he had treated him in his previous life, the angst along with the character growth is de-lecious~. The inner turmoil of "I like that ML is so nice" to "WHY is ML so nice" which leads to "Shit, I used to be terrible to this nice ML" is very fun to read, tbh. Of course, having the ML's POV makes this even for frustrating and addictive to read.

Mind you, of course I had been warned by that r*pe tag and some of the reviews but I trully believed that with the way the story was going, maybe the writer could fix things. I knew that eventually the truth would come to light, especially with ML starting to have some memory bleed-through effect from his previous life. I thought that since 1) MC seemed remorseful for what he had done then 2) Dead-set on not doing that again and actually treasuring the ML and 3) R*pe taking place in that past life alone, that there was a good chance the relationship could somehow survive and I'd be okay with this.

But how? I wondered, "How can this writer make me love this relationship knowing that r*pe is r*ape?"

With the knowledge that all the evil deeds MC commited in his previous life were all because of that cursed evil flower, planted in him by none other than the sweet, sweet Shī Mèi, Meatbun had managed to give MC the most impossible of pardons.

In the most unpleasant turn of events ever, not only did they not utilize the best get-out-of-jail-free card to let the couple live happily ever after, but apparently Meatbun's idea of an ending was the ML to continue being with BOTH versions of MC (the kind and wiser one and the r*pist) BECAUSE HE LOVES MC NO MATTER WHAT. f*ck. THAT.

ML plays the guqin and MC thinks back to his former life where he ra/ped ML whilst forbidding him from playing the guqin in front of anyone else.

fell in love with MC (then 15) at first sight because he complimented him (????) it was almost funny how he went from 0 to 100 fantasizing about MC accompanying him in his life as someone who understands and loves him equally. Most people say this is alright bc ML didn't understand s*xual attraction so his love was 'pure', and that in the second life MC is a 25 y/o in the body of a 15 y/o anyway (this happens 6 months after their first meeting), but still, the fact that ML first fell in love with a 15 y/o kid remains unchanged.

• • shi mei (from og timeline) turns out to be the villain. This is because no way in he// are MC and ML getting together without the OG moonlight being vilified in some way. This is done to eliminate any feeling of romantic attraction or tenderness that MC had harbored for him (coupled with his apparent growing love for ML).

• • The gratuitous descriptions of ra/pe flashbacks and the subsequent single sentence of MC feeling guilty about it would persist. Saying the character feels sorry for being a rap/ist after writing an eroticized description of said ra/pe would continue feeling insidious.

• • MC would be put through immense trials to earn his right to love and care for ML given the kind of sh/it he put him through in the first timeline by way of painful plot. (For some reason it gave me the mental image of a person walking their way back into hell barefoot over searing coals to taste even a glimpse of redemption).

• • Given ML's character, after finding out about what happened in the first timeline (this will surely happen) he'll blame himself for getting serially ra/ped by MC. Reading this would seriously mess up my mind.

• • Readers will be made to doubt if the confinement and ra/pe was that bad when *shock* ML is revealed to have still been in love with MC through the entirety of captivity.

The ML gave 15yo MC a whipping of 40 strikes because MC picked a flower that he wanted to give to ML to show his admiration. And MC couldn't communicate that because, , , there's no such thing as communication!!!