For My Derelict Favorite

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I entered my favorite romance-fantasy novel, which I have read many times.

Thanks to the body of a wealthy commoner, I bought the status of a fallen aristocrat, attended a noble family’s gathering and observed the romance of the characters in the original novel.

I wanted to return to the real world after witnessing the ending.

But somehow, even after the ending, I was not freed from the body I possessed and remained living in the original novel.

As a result, I acquired the stories behind the scenes that I refused to comprehend.

My favorite sub male lead, Caelus, has died.

Living impoverished in the original work without him, I eventually fell ill and died.

Now, I wanted to return to reality.

However, the irony of fate has returned me to the end of the novel overnight. This is definitely… to save my beloved, right?

Associated Names
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FMDF
For My Abandoned Love
For My Derelict Beloved
For My Derelict Favorite (Official Webtoons Manhwa)
For My Forsaken Beloved
버려진 나의 최애를 위하여
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Athy1211
Athy1211 rated it
July 27, 2022
Status: Completed
I read the MTL version of this novel, quite easy to understand if you want to overlook some parts.

Now onto the actual novel. I LOVE it! For a novel that's basically rofan, it is surprisingly realistic. There are no shortcuts taken by the author to justify plots. The ML has easily become one of my favourite ones, it's so refreshing to see a non-toxic ML full of green flags! And the way the author addresses mental health is like the cherry on top! Easily one of the best novels I... more>> have read. <<less
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Katou Yui rated it
November 23, 2023
Status: Completed
This is one of my favourite novels. I understand Hestia very much, (I'm also coming and re-reading this novel a lot of times xD), her character is very easy to relate to.

You get suddenly thrown into another world, with no memories of what happened to you, but since it's your favourite novel you want to experience it since you think it's a dream. But it's not. The novel has reached its end, but that world keeps going and you don't feel part of it, and even more, you... more>> lose the only person (character for her) that gaves meaning to your being in that world... this is a very hard experience.

Hestia's character development is really good. She doesn't feel like part of that world, for her it's not reality. But it's Caels's development what saves her in the end too.

I also loved that Hestia, knowing that not talking can cause huge misunderstandings because she has read a lot of novels where that happens, just talks and explains herself. xDD <<less
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zoeyzoeyzoey
zoeyzoeyzoey rated it
December 16, 2022
Status: c1
If you want to enjoy this novel make sure to not think to much. The premise is weak and if you think to hard you’ll get super annoyed. I’d also have liked to see me interaction between the main characters. Most of the novel is bestie rubbing around scheming and there’s bit a ton of interaction between the couple. But it’s a decent read, just don’t take it to srsly.
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KeraShr
KeraShr rated it
October 27, 2022
Status: Completed
5 stars! ✨️

Loved it!! The author did a wonderful job!!

I loved the message the author wanted to depict. That Yes, Love is Great. It is warn & fuzzy. But it is also pain, commitment, chaos & sacrifice. Love is not receiving but it involves more of giving.

MC is a lovely character who is smart & sassy with sharp tongue. ML is shown from start as mentally depressed patient with suicidal thoughts. But he gets better because MC loves him unconditionally. Rather than expect ML will love her, she just wants... more>> ML to forget his past love, leave all his troubles to her & live his life happily.

I also loved how the subject of morality was broached in the novel. Our reality is not black or white. It has a lot of Grey areas. Morality depends on a person's actual knowledge of the situation & perception that he/she has towards it.

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MC wanted to make OG MC lose face because she though herself to be on a moral high ground. MC gave the example of a woman who killed a young boy, and asked if she should be punished. All around her agreed. When she told them that in reality, the woman had a daughter. The boy whom she mu*dered had r*ped her daughter & killed her. Everyone was shocked but they agreed that the young boy deserved that. But still OG MC argued that since that was the case, then the woman should have approached the court of law for justice. The MC explained that the woman did but the boy was not punished because he was young or juvenile. Something about how young ones can make small mistakes. That's how legal justice was given to her daughter, who had to suffer in life and couldn't get justice even after her death.

So the woman took matters in her own hand. She can't be judged as wrong based on some lofty morals because she just took vengeance for her daughter, who cannot take it for herself & justice for her was even denied by the court of law.

Thus, MC defended ML's choice for which he was condemned by OG MC.

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Scholek
Scholek rated it
August 31, 2022
Status: special 5
There are many reasons why I loved this story and only one thing I was slightly dissatisfied about. The story is obviously better quality than most rofan I read. The plot is actually quite realistic, so extreme situations and crazy situations are pretty much nonexistent.

The female lead was pleasantly vindictive. She was a dedicated villainess who shrewdly laid out her plans to get justice for her beloved (how wonderfully loyal), but she also had moments where her excellently flawed human side peeked out. This was the highlight and spiciest part... more>> of the story alongside her developing relationship with the thrown away second male lead. In most stories the villainess is quite flamboyant and all situations are highly tense bombs. Hestia, taking the role of the villainess, is very normal, realistic, and could predominantly be described as shrewd or subtle. It is very different from the typical villainess. Hestia feels like a malicious girl who could actually exist rather than someone who suffers from raging rofan protagonist syndrome.

The male lead (the losing second male lead of the original novel story) was a sad puppy. The story was predominantly about his heartbreak, mental illness, and healing. He worked so hard and loyally for his first love only to be thrown away like tr*sh by the original female lead. It was greatly satisfying that his broken-hearted self received healing from a new female lead (Hestia the transmigrator) who was a loyal person the same kind as him and only for him.

After reading the entire story I realized that a major subplot was the fight against mental illness. The obvious part was the male lead's heartbreak and depression. I would say it was a very accurate portrayal of stages of depression. At the beginning he couldn't find the motivation to do anything. Then as the female lead progressed his healing he began to do little hobbies here and there as a de-stressing exploratory measure while he contemplated the meaning of his life. Less obvious was the fact that the new female lead (Hestia) also had a problem with mental illness from the very beginning of the story. Her mental illness was a case of homesickness, identity crisis, depression, and "transmigrator/regressor illness" which most stories don't address.

The one part of the story that I was slightly dissatisfied with was the ending and the special chapters after the ending. I wouldn't say it was a disappointment or bad since the main point of the story was her relationship with the thrown away second male lead and it was addressed, but I was hoping for a more impactful ending. Bluntly, I thought the ending was a bit too normal, boring, and any other significant information I was interested in wasn't addressed at all.

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Diana who took the role of the female antagonist throughout the entire story completely disappeared from the ending. What ultimately happened to her and anything related to her was never mentioned after a certain point.

The female lead and male lead also had a good ending, but somehow it was quite normal and subdued. It wasn't particularly passionate and interesting. Instead their ending was like a very gentle heartwarming ember and strangely normal. The same could be said of the crown prince and his relationship. The extra special chapters were boring.

I wanted to see some other characters' perspectives. I wanted some public opinion looking in and wanted to know about the situation of the country, royal family, church, territories, citizens, etc. There was nothing like that. Instead I got a short family vacation that was even more normal and boring than my own family vacations.

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cuppushiino
cuppushiino rated it
August 11, 2022
Status: c32
(this review contains hints of spoilers, I tried my best to not add spoilers)

[This novel really emphasize on character development of male character I would say. Even though he still has similar way of loving people in the end, he still developed in my opinion. Plus, he is also very cute. He is more of aloof type in my eyes but his actions are so cute. And I like that the story is fine with expressing the distress of two main characters. I would rate it 10/10 ... more>>
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EXCEPT the ending. IMO the ending is rushed. There are some parts in the story which are yet to solve and stuffs yet to be done. It would be good if the author comes up with season 2, just my wish of course. I think the path are very open for season 2. I really wish to see more 0f the two main leads being lovey dovey cos there was no much chapters with just two having a good time being couples and going on dates and stuffs.

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Anyway, this is my thought, even tho I wish it was much longer, I really enjoyed the story. I love the main characters' personalities and the relationship between them. I binged read it but it is worth it. <<less
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antimonia
antimonia
November 19, 2024
Status: --
I like it so far, but the translation choices are killing me. The translation itself is really, really good! In fact, it reads very smoothly and naturally. However, starting in the later chapters, the translator makes the baffling choice to use chatgpt to summarise parts of chapters midway through! It's explained as "to avoid copyright issues" but it leaves such a sour taste in my mouth. They've already done the work to translate the chapters. Surely, a short summary of what happens would be better than some AI slop? The... more>> AI summary is so obvious, because they literally just copy paste the response in and it doesn't match at all with the story. It also leaves out important points so when you read through the AI summary, you have no idea where you're at when the summary ends.

The use of AI is especially egregious as the translator does not consider where the AI is summarising. Because of it, the big emotional scenes are just left as emotionless summaries from a robot. All of the author's original words are completely lost. It's really disappointing. I am staunchly against AI, so this really makes me unable to stomach reading any further. Dropped. <<less
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Jane_Doe01838
Jane_Doe01838 rated it
October 24, 2024
Status: --
Was hesitant to give this a go but honestly it had been a good read until the ending and the chapter leading up to it.

To start with, FL is a HOPELESS FANGIRL, and I say that as a compliment. That is a major characteristic of her, but it is there for a reason.

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FL did NOT want to come to the novel world. She did NOT want to die and be reborn again, let alone twice for that matter (transmigration first, regression afterwards). Her codependency to the ML make sense because she was coping from her unwanted circumstances. I see that a lot of people get put off with that aspect, but her fangirling is warranted and explained enough. Like the ml, she is also s*icidal from the beginning right to the end because of her circumstances (again), and the fangirling was her way to cope unhealthily with her s*icidal tendencies.

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I'm honestly fascinated with the antagonist though. The ogFL was essentially a religious nut— self righteous, thinks highly of herself because of her religious beliefs, lowkey looks down on others who don't hold the same beliefs as her, and most of all, a hypocrite. IRL, I think she'd be one of those old religious people who would think, "you are going to hell!" to other people who don't hold the same beliefs as her.

In any case, that's why she couldn't get along with the FL at all. Their beliefs were just clashing. BUT that doesn't make her a bad person at all. She is morally righteous and reading about her, you could see that she has a genuine desire to do good. It's just that her execution of it is so wrong that it makes her seem like a hypocrite.
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She preaches a lot about the aristocrats being wasteful to resources and all, yet she holds the second highest position in the empire and isn't willing to do something about that. She genuinely believes that she isn't wrong for that because she's using it to do good. She preaches about the church and religion a lot but the church is literally corrupt and stealing from the poor (and she almost overran the palace with church members that one time so you can only imagine how will that go). All in all, a hypocrite— could see the fault from others and criticize them for it, but couldn't see that she's doing the same thing and even make excuses for it.

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Admittedly, some parts made me cringe, but that could be a translation. Everything was just derailed with that ending. I feel like it would have been better if she had either gone back to korea OR the ML cleans his act better. He's kind of like Diana for being a bit of a hypocrite with his "let's just live a peaceful life together". Like, you're getting that peace from the efforts of the FL all throughout, but you couldn't even choose her at the last moment? That just frustrated the hell outta me.
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Man, I get the FL almost being s*icidal again right after that. I mentioned that the ML was essentially her coping mechanism from being in a world she doesn't want to be in to, and he just did that to her. That must have felt like her reason to live was outwardly rejecting her.

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Toads-on-the-Road
Toads-on-the-Road rated it
February 15, 2024
Status: c17
Dropped it after 17 chapters.

It had so many good ratings so I was excited but I'm disappointed.

I like slow burn but here there's nothing burning. Absolutely zero sparks even halfway into the story.

... more>> There's just a lot of political back and forth that feels quite repetitive. Very little interaction between the main pairing. None that are actually meaningful.

I like MC as a character but the ML feels like a prop. There doesn't seem to be any chemistry between them and I just got really bored waiting anything at all to happen.

The translation is also rough. I had to gloss over quite a few sentences because they didn't make sense. I'm still grateful for the work that was put in but just as a warning for everyone else. <<less
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Bobaateaa
Bobaateaa rated it
November 15, 2023
Status: special 5
I highly recommend this! Story is short but to the point. The pacing is great, no back and forth useless misunderstandings or unnecessary events to prolong the story, ofc looking from the Lead's perspective. Helios and Diana could've used more communication but I guess that's hard when Diana is a stone. It's straightforward and refreshing. R18 scenes are okay. Kind of awkward but that's it.

feel free to skip below is my thoughts on the characters

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Hestia is a realistic character. Her obsession with ML to a certain point can be too much but if you consider her situation it became bearable. She believes that since it's inside a novel, she can do whatever she wants and when things become clear that this is in fact reality, she had a hard time accepting that (very realistic), while other novel characters from a similar plot would immediately accept the novel as their reality. She's not s*upid and she knows her goal well and understand that by doing things differently, future events will also change.

Kaelus is very "professional". He fully respects and supports FL despite only being contractually married. He's too kind for his own good. Seems to be a very emotional man, and at the later chaps cries a lot though not a bad thing. Communication skill started off okayish as he didn't really talk much unless FL initiates, but as time went by and he opens his heart, it became much better and he is very aggressive and passionate.

Helios. Despite other opinions that he was forgiven rather quick than Diana, I think that is just to be expected since he recognizes his mistakes and constantly tries to better himself. He apologize and all, he did that after fully understanding the situation and his wrong doings, without justifying anything.

Diana was a hard-headed, stubborn character until the end. I honestly hoped she got a character development and somehow lived a happy life with CP. But until the end she was unmoved and hates changing. The amount of bad and wrong things she did just to prove others wrong is something to learn from. Also her apologies were never sincere, she's not sorry for the things she did, she's sorry because she wants to remove her own guilt or to make the situation better.

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Nore Valerie
Nore Valerie rated it
October 8, 2023
Status: --
I truly appreciate this novel. I love how the author put in lots of emotions, like the ones you feel when you love someone you can't have and you start to doubt yourself and everything after they love you back. The author portrayed these emotions perfectly which makes it more fun to read. I love their moments, some of them are simple but beautiful enough to make you squeak. The main leads character developments are good and the story over all is very interesting and good. I highly recommend
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En-Jay99
En-Jay99 rated it
April 24, 2023
Status: special 5
A very very interesting novel. Not a typical shoujo as the MC isn't quite in her right mind, acknowledges that, and keeps moving forward.

What is reality? Is it the world before? The novel? Her first life? The second? The MC's disassociation and constant self-reflection is very well done and also not so heavy handed that it bogs the story down. It's something the character and story constantly works on as it develops.

To be fair, I didn't agree with all of the MC's actions but that is part of the point... more>> I believe. I think some of the reviews miss this point. MC isn't a saint pursuing justice. She seeks revenge and wants two people to pay for it. So what if she's called a villain for it? Her beloved was hurt and that's all that matters.

MC is a fascinating cunning character, with a lot of love to give, and in desperate need of an anchor after her life's been ripped from her twice, which is what the ML is to her. I realize that this all makes the novel sound super serious, but it's actually pretty well balanced.

takes a little bit of time for the story to really hit it's stride so don't give up too soon. If you don't want to read a story where two people are codependent and make each other their life's meaning, then please skip this novel. <<less
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Bookworm_Sueweetie
Bookworm_Sueweetie rated it
February 8, 2023
Status: Completed
I'm surprised that I came to like this novel. All characters got depth. They were flawed but no one was deemed as pure evil/villain. I also liked the development of relationship between leads.

I understood that some think that FL (Hestia) was unlikeable (can be anti-hero few times) and some of her reasons were confusing... but I find her POV and the plot got certain uniqueness compared to transmigration/regression novels making it interesting.

FL and ML:

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FL (Hestia) straightforward character. After transmigration, the purpose of her living was her fanatism toward ML (Kaelus). She loved him but didn't crave for his love like a fan. At first life in novel, she just existing (until she dies) like viewing a novel on VR. But after ML's death and coming back to 2nd life in novel, she wanted to change the plot in favor of ML and OG leads to apologize to him. Some of her schemes were questionable but she initially didn't care bc she view herself as "new author" and will be back in real world so she got no lingering feelings in the novel world. Glad she got realizations and have happy ending w/ ML.

Meanwhile, I liked the ML (Kaelus). He got moments of weakness but that heatbreaking experience... didn't stop him to love FL unconditionally in later chapters

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OG Plot Lead:

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"Romance alone is not enough for aristocracy and royalty. Love like novels are only on novels".

Diana and Helios' loved dim after their passionate love in original main novel. Other than their love, they got difference in views in life. Also, 2 of them symbolized diff path... Helios admitted his fault, apologized and learned from it. Meanwhile, Diana remained stubborn and can't accept other's views... reason why she's the only one who didn't moved forward on the end

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Con:

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I just find "some" of FL'S schemes were unnecessary... bc me as lazybummer will chose to easily watch the OG couple ruin their relationship like in first life. Anyway, her schemes got good results tho w/ all her hardwork

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Warning: Some chapters can be smutty and snusnu scenes can be graphical (⁠*⁠﹏⁠*⁠;⁠) <<less
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Drenlith
Drenlith rated it
August 18, 2022
Status: Completed
4.3

Originally wanted to rate it slightly higher, but the rushed ending left a weird aftertaste, it was generally too fast-paced. I'd love it if the author had shown the ML's narrative and had given it a little more time to explore the story and the embedded story's premise instead of taking off from 0 to 100.

About the smut; it's more of an adult-rated novel than smut, ... more>>
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Physical intimacy was late-stage, it was raunchy but as far as detailing goes, it was not as much as you'd expect from a 'smut' tag novel. S*x scenes didn't happen more than 4 times, becoming vaguer over time, the rest were all off-screen moments.

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I loved how the MC was full of flaws that hadn't been covered up or glossed over. She's one of the more realistic types of FLs you'd see in fantasy romance book transmigration tropes.
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Her plans would fall through, or not be well thought out, she'd occasionally get carried away by her emotions when getting heated in an argument with her nemesis the saintess, or be full of schadenfreude in the og couple's misery.

Selfish, petty, and vengeful to her enemies; but devoted, hardworking, caring and considerate to loved ones.

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Overall I enjoyed Hestia grabbing the front seat to throw figurative rotten tomatoes at an arrogant ogML and empty-headed ogFL.

'smol' rants: Lacks strongly in details.

First of all, the embedded story:

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I have no idea what to think of the sins the saintess Diana (ogFL) was condemning the ML (og2ndML) for; was it an unavoidable situation there because her life was threatened by the princess Letona (villainess in OG story) or more a carefully planned out mu*der? The whole country seems to know of it and nobody really cares for some reason. The only thing that's clear to me is that the way, both friend and crush, pushed Kaelus (og2ndML/ML) away after all he had done and dedicated to them, was his tipping point.

They have been wielding him like a tool for their means, to begin with, and were never ever sorry for using him until then or condemning him for 'overstepping' his lines executing duties of the crown prince or when he'd go off to comfort Diana etc. Felt like they had drawn a line WAY TOO LATE.

About MC's involvement in the first uninfluenced storyline:

How and where did she get all the money to buy a title? Woke up in a body of a commoner who just won the lottery? (*≧▽≦) ノシ))

Also, more than unconditionally adoring the 2nd ML and feeling angry for him by taking his death personally, I believe when the church turned away from her when she was in need of succor was partially the reason why she was vengeful against them, Diana being a direct representative of the church, holding firmly hypocritically in her idealistic naive beliefs, would be the best striking dummy for her pent-up anger, including for having to hurt her bias on top.

It's hard to believe she was saddened to the extreme by the death of a fictional character, even if she had lived through the story on the sidelines, to the point of losing the will to live.

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About ppl defending Diana:
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I feel like her ending was already a graceful one. She still had someone who stood by her side til the very end and she never experienced the hardships of life but merely had her interpersonal relationships crumble away (as it would have happened in the original anyway). She's naive but most importantly far too ignorant and patronizing. She'd treat others like they're all blind to the 'truth' and never compromises on anything she set her mind on.

Crown princess or not, her marriage would've failed mainly because of how inflexible she is. (Which it did, even w/o MC's involvement.)

Besides that, on top, she's been extremely indecisive. So far, she had people do the dirty work and make decisions for her, she just had to be a sweet little angel, giving waves and smiles. But living as a crown princess, she acted more like a saintess than before, demanding the unwavering support of her spouse to her cause and giving nothing back in return. Til the end, she refused to move on with life and blamed her choices on others. At least the ogML made some progress and was sincere in his apologies, still a c*cky b*stard though, that one.

About Helios:

Uncorregiable c*cky b*astard at first, but later improves himself by reflecting on his and his wife's actions.

He definitely had his share of faults for spoiling Diana by unconditionally shielding her regardless of the context and circumstances.

Then again Diana isn't the type who can take criticism, so it's 50/50 understandable why he coddled her that far; he tried to please her too hard at some point without even realizing it.

When he confronts her later on about their faults, she wouldn't have any of it and goes full victim Karen mode. By simply questioning her actions and seeing fault in her was the breaking point in their marriage.

I think it was said she was raised at the temple/church and been subtly infused with the belief that she can do no wrong, she's a saint, and whatever she says and does is the right thing. To be fair, the men who were enamored with her, did the same.

Diana is too childish to be a crown princess, she refused to learn from others and had offended too many of them to have the opportunity to redeem herself. So yes, Helios needed a new crown princess, someone who can pull their own weight.

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Lastly, I recommend the manhwa adaptation, it has more details that the novel missed and is several notches more comical when Hestia starts fangirling (compared to the depressing overtone in the novel). <<less
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AnastasiaTh
AnastasiaTh rated it
April 7, 2025
Status: Completed
To be honest, I'm pretty much on edge lately since many of the novels I read have unsatisfying ending. So I may come a bit harsh on this novel, it can be 4 stars but..

This novel basically is ruined because of its ending.

No, I think it's going downhill after

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Hestia's PTSD is not addressed nicely, the author just went out about Heli and Diana's story instead of how Hestia come out from the anxiety and loss of meaning after Cael decided that revenge to Diana is not what he wanted.

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It is not just Hestia that is at loss, but me too. Her background, like most readers agreed on, is of little importance. But you cannot just shove the scars aside and went ahead with the bullsh*t "in the name of love, she heals!" like sailor moon suddenly curing PTSD. What's the point of her journey before if it was eventually going to end as if it was in vain?

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What's absurd is someone who’s emotionally detached from the world suddenly not being detached anymore. Maybe many readers believe and can accept that, because she loves Cael enough to change—I mean, she always says she's his fanatic fan—but I don't buy that shit. I know that Cael is the anchor that keeps her sane, but it’s not just him. Heli and Diana matter too.

Her desire for revenge, deep down, is denial—a refusal to accept that she's stuck in that world with no way back to her original one. She thinks if she can make Cael happy, she can go back (I mean, she must unconsciously think of a real happy ending one and obviously Cael committed su*cide is not) —hence, she believes that to make Cael happy, she needs to make Heli and Diana regret. But then Cael says he didn't want to be entangled with them anymore basically saying what she did is never his will.

This is never about making Cael happy, this about how to go back to her world. And she must started to aware of the fact she's stuck when she realizes that revenge is not the answer.

So what are you supposed to do when you can't deny that anymore? And that's where the author failed to deliver.

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So, I cannot figure it out. Why are there people who reread this thing that feels like stuffing a fish bone down your throat, then treat it like sore throat medicine? Do you guys just love hurting yourselves that much? <<less
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AereaSilver45
AereaSilver45 rated it
November 25, 2024
Status: Completed
I loved this story from start to finish.

Hestia was a female protagonist with great guts until the end, she was determined to save Kael (Her Favorite), her idolized husband, many times I hit my head against the wall (figuratively speaking) because of Hestia's attitude towards Kael, seeing how the black clouds that darkened their relationship, I felt very happy when they managed to overcome it.

Hestia and Kael's love was natural, it was built over time and blossomed with some beautiful babies.

I was very happy when Helios and Diana divorced but... more>> after all the problems I was glad that Helios found love with Yuno, and babies Jupiter and Venus. <<less
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gataloca
gataloca rated it
November 21, 2024
Status: Completed
It was a nice read. OK translation.

I like how they deal with mental problem, depression, su*cide, confusion about the reality, fanaticism. MC are not perfect because of those issues. The romance develop slowly, which feel more realistic.
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scriptor
scriptor rated it
August 27, 2024
Status: epilogue
Seeing a lot of mixed reviews for this novel (understandably), I'm going to chip in as to why it's an interesting if not flawless novel. Definitely worth the read, don't get me wrong! Rating it 4/5 because there's room for improvement.

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    • Something people won't know going into the novel is that ALL the characters are flawed and real. It's not just the protagonists, even Hestia (MC) is flawed. She's an unreliable narrator in her own way.
    • Depression, the suicidal kind, is depicted very seriously. It's not easy to get better. It takes Kaelus (ML) what feels like 60-70% of the novel to slowly overcome it. And it's not explicitly said in the end but can be inferred that Hestia herself also suffers from depression and denial.
    • More on Hestia's mental problems: These stem from her sudden transmigration (1st round) that she didn't deal with well -- she was in denial and viewed the world like a story, hyperfixating on Kaelus-the-favorite as the pillar holding up her mental world, kinda. She's a bystander for the events of the canon story until Kaelus su*cides, leading to her rant at the temple and subsequent rebirth (2nd round). This round, she's still not dealing well. She's even more hyperfixated on Kaelus: keeping him alive and taking revenge on Diana, all while avoiding what it means for her to exist in this world. And although some people wish she stayed vengeful, etc. Against Diana (OG!FL), I feel that her eventual breakdown was a long time coming. It's not healthy to be so fixated, which I think Kaelus and Helios (OG!ML) both picked up on and tried to stop without knowing how badly Hestia would break down. She nearly commits su*cide but the breakdown was necessary for her to have so she could realize some brutal truths about herself. It's why she and Kaelus leave for Attica, to mentally recuperate after all that drama.
    • I like how characters are very distinct, with their own personalities. Madam Harmonia has her own growth arc. In contrast, there are also people like Diana who not only fail to realize their wrongs but also fail to change.
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DriftingWhiteClouds
DriftingWhiteClouds rated it
May 13, 2024
Status: Completed
As someone who immensely enjoyed the manhwa and then finished it through the novel, it pained me to rate this four stars.

Is it because I want to rate it five stars, but I don't want to exaggerate, or maybe I don't think it deserves that much? I can't decide or choose, and I think that's what the author felt.

To be clear, I'm not interested in finding author notes, so don't quote my assumptions.

However, there were a lot of interesting ideas at play here. The main one was how much of... more>> a "selfless fangirl" the FMC was, it felt almost like she was playing an interactive and immersive VR game.

The other interesting ideas were also connected to the FMC because it's about some psychological stuff like the sinking existential crisis of "playing a role" but never thinking about who you are as a person in this world, or embracing love regardless of how it ended because you found happiness in knowing how to love, or the blurry lines of how we treat people because of the things they've done that we classify as "right or wrong."

Okay, one of those things is not like the others. ANYWAY, the important thing is that you shouldn't overthink it since the author didn't either. Maybe I should hit up academic papers if I want to dive into these topics.

It was a nice romance fantasy, though it's a lot more focused on the romance. It's more of a romance comedy in the beginning and a little bit by the end, but the ending was... similar to going on a seesaw. If you're lucky, your mood will go up a lot, but it's somehow always meant to go down. <<less
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Dianille
Dianille rated it
September 20, 2023
Status: Completed
I found myself torn between giving this story 4 or 5 stars, but in the end, I settled on 4⭐. It's not that I disliked the ending; it just felt a bit anticlimactic for my taste. Diana, the antagonist, never showed any signs of repentance at all. Maybe she does have an off-screen redemption arc somehow, but as a reader, it left me somewhat unsatisfied.

Another factor in my 4⭐ rating was the unequal love between the MC and ML at the beginning. Having to read through the ML's indifference while... more>> knowing the MC's deep love for him was a bit tough for me. It's more of a personal preference thing; I've never been a fan of stories where the protagonist falls in love first. It hits too close to home since I've experienced pining for nearly 7 years myself. So, it did make me a tad uncomfortable reading those types of stories.

Diana, the original FL, is a religious fanatic filled with hypocrisy, self-absorption, and self-righteousness. I'm convinced she's a narcissist who can't stand anyone voicing a different opinion. While she's not outright evil, her stubborn insistence on viewing the world in black and white, without any shades of gray, is extremely annoying. She's the type who'd condemn a butcher for cruelty while happily enjoying the privilege of eating meat – a classic case of hypocrisy.

The MC's character is rather complex, even if it's not obvious at the beginning. She battles with anxiety, experiences occasional manic episodes, often detaches from reality, has depression, doesn't feel like she belongs in this world, and experiences impostor syndrome. Her homesickness is also a significant issue, even in the face of the ML's love and willingness to spend his life with her.

What's concerning is her persistent hope of returning to her modern life, to the extent that she's contemplated drastic measures like ending her own life. When the ML suggested giving up on revenge, it felt like the only reason she didn't take more extreme actions was the uncertainty of the result.

The MC's reasons for seeking revenge are not entirely selfless for the ML. She genuinely harbors personal hatred toward the two original protagonists. The ML was her lifeline in this world prior to regression, and his su*cide caused her immense pain, as if her purpose for living in this world had been shattered. In a way, the actions of the two protagonists indirectly hurt her as well. That's why she reacts so strongly when the ML suggests abandoning the revenge. She's torn because the reason she initially pursued revenge (for the sake of the ML) conflicts with her own unreconciled hatred.

The bitterness in her heart is understandable, and the fact that revenge became her life's purpose makes it all the more difficult to let go. She's struggling to cope because of her transmigration. She never truly cared for people other than the ML until she had children.

Towards the end of the story, the ML may have noticed that the MC isn't as mentally healthy as she outwardly projects. She's exceptionally skilled at hiding her struggles, appearing as a high-functioning member of society. It's surprising to think that she might be one of the least mentally stable in the group. I can't help but feel disappointed by the story's handling of the MC's inner problems. It seems like the author used the behind-the-scenes trip to the duchy region as a form of therapy for the MC without the two protagonists talking to each other in depth.

Also, I found that the smut in the story weren't the best. They seemed somewhat out of place and didn't quite match the overall tone of the narrative. It could be a bit jarring when explicit terminology like 'A, B, C' was used when the story previously had a somber tone. <<less
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