I'm still weirded out that all the MLs in an arc are the same person and that in their previous lives before Shen Jue regained his memories, they basically did selfcest.

The chapters where Shen Jue gets together with the ML can be skipped in my opinion. The story already feels complete without it. ML isn't completely all there mentally, since all the roles he played in the world hopping arcs sometimes come back to "pester" Shen Jue. I never got the impression that Shen Jue fell in love with the ML after all this time, although the ML fell really hard, and instead it's more like he's putting up with the ML?? And feeling a sense of guilt and responsibility to stay together with the ML. Not to mention, they do have a child together.

Then again, I MTL'd this story, so some things may have been lost in translation.

It's the person who made Shen Jue faced the punishment in the first place! His pasts! His life! DAMN IT'S FUKHEIN SAD BRUHHH

And the saddest thing is that he died thinking very lowly of himself! He su*cides GUYS! I CRIED OVER HIM A LOT!

DAMN! He needs a redemption n more happier ending but the author just ends it with that! Mann, my heart broke hard for him.. n since I read it via MTL I'm not even sure what his true name is!😭 (Tho, I think it's Yizhen)

As a full time s*um ab*se enthusiast that collects various tragic and angsty bl novels, I guarantee the quality of the product and consumer satisfaction for both m and s. I ensure that the consumer would experience the most bloody and pleasurable or**sm from the tragedy of the story. Not only would the consumer feel the outmost despair and pain of the ML and MC, you would also lose the last remaining humanity in your heart and start the journey to being a villain that wants to destroy the world the characters live in:))

Speaking of those who ab*sed him AKA the MLs, Shen Jue didn't have deep emotions after regaining his memories. At first, you'll think it's because he's originally an immortal and that's his personality and he originally doesn't understand mortal emotions... then I started to realize that it seemed to not be the case. The MC DID SUFFER and FELT REAL EMOTIONS towards the MLs in previous lives whether it's hatred, love, care, betrayal, hope, despair... He Felt those REAL emotions before regaining his memories. After that, he seemed to only be SET ON KILLING THEM as revenge... But I still felt that if it's revenge... what he's doing is NOT CRUEL ENOUGH and he doesn't seem to CARE AT ALL as long as he can kill them. So I started thinking, there seemed to be no satisfaction for the mc's side, how is it revenge?

The trauma of being betrayed by his loved ones, the despair of being abandoned and the embarrassment of being humiliated (raped, yes he was, not by the MLs), YES all of these were experiences in one scenario or another in the PREVIOUS lives without his memories. HE TRULY LIVED for some of the MLS and cared for them. His hoped was crashed when HE CARED AND TRIED TO WORK SO HARD JUST TO DIE IN THE MOST INSIGNIFICANT AND PAINFUL WAY. It was fine if he didn't care... but the fact that HE ONCE HOPED to receive love from one of the MLs, it killed my heart.

But in my mind "SO WHAT?". It's really laughable for me and I asked myself "I wonder how they'll react once they find out that they could have easily get the MC if only they treated him with just a little bit of care and kindness from their previous lives."

He doesn't look down on them and doesn't even want unrelated and innocent people to be implicated by his "revenge". Imagine being reincarnated over and over again just to live in the most painful way and die in the most painful way as well. The worst thing is not the physical torture but the trauma and despair directly or indirectly implicated by the MLs whom he once cared for or hoped to receive care from...

How can the MC remain calm after regaining his memories? How could the MC still say "sorry" after hurting one of the MLs, when obviously, they've done much worse to him in previous lives?

Ok, they suffered physically, were exhausted and treated coldly by the MC... they were sometimes filled with guilt, but this guilt is very shallow since it only came from THIS "LIFETIME" when the MC regained his memories. It was so unfair for the MC who suffered several lifetimes without his original memories... The MC suffered and developed trauma even if he looks calm and cold now, he does have emotions. THE MLS are killed almost immediately everytime. How about that time when the MC was tortured and r*ped before dying and his mutilated corpse was thrown to the ML but the ML didn't even look and just said he doesn't eat corpses? THE MLS WILL GET KARMA WHEN SHEN JUE STARTS HIS MISSION TO KILL THEM. They will indeed fall in love and suffer from the pain of falling in love but not getting love. They will feel betrayal from the MC or even sadness from knowing the MC wanted to kill them. BUT SO WHAT ? They still died IMMEDIATELY. NO TORTURE, NO HUMILIATION, JUST DYING RIGHT THEN AND THERE. Ok, they'll feel extreme despair by being killed by the person they love or being killed and not being with the MC anymore... BUT THEIR CORPSE WAS STILL IN TACT and THEY DIDN'T EVEN SUFFER FROM TORTURE. They weren't r*ped, they weren't humiliated, and they didn't die in vain, because some assumed it's "for the mc", "I deserve to die", "it's ok I'm happy as long as I can make you (mc) happy", "I'll die for you" "I'll die with you". In other words, although in pain, it's not the SAME DESPAIR THE MC FELT AND ITS NOT THE SAME SEVERENESS. THEY'RE STILL SOMEHOW CONTENTED ONE WAY OR ANOTHER LOL.

Let the MLs get r*ped, then I would change my mind, otherwise, they don't deserve a quick death at all

I couldn't think of anything more FITTING for this... Even though, yes, I hate the ML, still hate, and forever will, no matter how much he suffered, suffers or will suffer... But I want the MC to be happy. Really happy, with his kid and someone who truly and forever be there to care and love him wholeheartedly. So yeah, I continued reading the "with pairing" ending and although I'm still in pain and can't move on from the suffering...I still love it to the point of madness...

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Yes, MC had killed ML directly and in-directly in all the arcs but remember, this is MC's 2nd time around in these realities. ML was pretty much an a-hole to MC and had also directly or in-directly killed the the MC, too. Whereas with the MC, ML died for and in love, the MC died, humiliated, betrayed, and shamed in the most unbearable of ways.

That through ML's persistent, MC suddenly accepts that their fates were intertwined and becomes tsundere-ish with the ML and accepts being touched by him, whereas in all the arcs, he had positively loathed any and every touch, makes me feel like the resolution to their relationship is shallow and unfulfilling with no psychological setbacks. Although I did quite like the multiple individuals of the ML, I would had enjoyed it better if the author had at least shown how the MC came to accept all of them even if reluctantly

Even that twat. Even if he had an unfortunate past, the decision he made was s*upid, selfish, and deserving of the initial beat down the MC gave. That the MC was punished in the way he had was grossly unfair and I approve of his revenge.

my only wish is that the MC learned to love through these experiences a little more obviously. But from his thoughts at the end of every arc we can only see that he is more and more convinced that love is vain and counterproductive (?). I know that he stil accepts the ML in the end, but he seems seven points unwilling : (

the first time shen jue killed murong xie that scene was absolutely heartbreaking.

how the beloved shou gets blackened around the MC is hot sorry but yu qing being described as a pale innocent beauty and then for shen jue he joins the military comes back tan and rugged as hell. And he turns from shou to masochistic gong. And the way he tells shen jue not to marry bc he'll kill whoever he ends up marrying. Bro even made a soul promise to never betray him and devote himself to him. Listen I love messed up characters and yu qing is just. Terribly appealing

arc 3 was absolutely PERFECT. Just when shen jue's actions began to test my limits. It was a modern arc and different from the historical arcs from before. In this arc the theme of killing the realm master was less prevalent and focused more on the characters, so much so that I completely forgot that he had a mission to accomplish. The story eventually began to focus more on the side characters so we only saw shen jue's actions from their pov, and I was even feeling a little frustrated with him, why was he leading both the two ml's on and what was his motive for that? And then that scene where qiao jiangyuan kissed him for the engagement and when they were in private the first thing shen jue was dry heave in the bathroom bc he felt disgusted with himself for having to rely on his body to seduce people all the time. He knew he had to do it, but even he felt disgust with being romantically involved with two people at once. Ouch, and then for the FIRST time in three arcs, he cried, and that hit my heart so bad. I feel bad for the readers who may have dropped this after feeling like shen jue was TOO heartless but in reality he just keeps it hidden under a hard impenetrable shell. He has limits too.